R.I.P. team peace pin

it fell off my backpack and i didn't notice. that's what you get when you try and represent in a foreign country!

i read another haruki murakami book and a nick hornby book this week. nick hornby's "how to be good" was ridiculous and strangely relevant. i marked a lot of pages. i might type a passage in here because i feel like everyone in the world should read it ( Read more... )

i dont really feel like writing too much but just a general it's getting better is good enough right? it's been sunny and a bit snowy and i've been busier which is good because it distracts me. i went to edinburgh last weekend, friends are visiting next weekend, and my friend natalie and i are planning to see paris and possibly madrid over spring ( Read more... )

i am spreading myself really thin ( Read more... )

i honestly have never felt so unsure in my life. today wasn't a really good day. last night was fun but in a way that it shouldn't have been. last night was a crowded club that i paid £3 to get into and then proceeded to have one stella and then just sit back in awe. all the girls looked the same. all the bodies were blending together in this huge ( Read more... )

i'm leaving for scotland...today. for 4 months. after all this, it only just hit me tonight, driving away from my friends at 2am. i'm going to misssss you all so much. <3

please dont forget me.


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i took a walk this afternoon. it was soo cold but lovely. i felt like i was the only person around (probably because i was). i walked down my road to the beach and walked away from the wind...along the rocks, past the boathouses to the end of scatteree beach and the sand was completely untouched. i walked all over it and danced and wrote things ( Read more... )

and it's only just begun.

picking myself up and leaving last thursday was probably the best decision i've made in a really long time. i learned more about myself and other people and pleasant connections in odd places. i thought a lot, and wrote a lot, and didn't sleep or eat a lot. now it's weird...home is so strange. i was finally feeling good, but now i'm feeling weird. ( Read more... )

it's hard when you're not a funny person in a group of very funny people that react well to the funnyness that you can't provide. god that is so awkward and uncomfortable. i am so distant. you...are so distant. what's going on?