Confused and Down
What have I been up to lately?
Finished up finals week and ready for vacation. Went to my Dad's little police party then to my aunts house the next day. They were off to Arkansas to visit my cousin. He's a newly wed and well trying to save money so no cross country trips for him yet. My brother is also in Iraq right now he says he's babysitting essentially.
So the guy I'm interested in right now is one of those energetic lovable types. I met him before but I vaguely remember it, I doubt he knows it too. He started hanging around the Art building (I was doing workstudy). I get out at certain times out of the week so Tuesday's and Thursday's I'm there until 5pm. I get out and he's around the Dance studio so I stop and talk for a while. This goes on for a short while until school is out. My first impression is he is waiting for one of the ballet girls but apparently not. I asked him one day why he was around there when the ballet class wasn't meeting that day. He didn't have an answer. Of course he said he wasn't waiting for anyone either. I guess it was just my imagination that there would be anything.
I added him to myspace he said add him to facebook instead, I did. Saw his total of 'friends' for both sites... 400 on each. Mr. Popular. heh. I knew I didn't have a chance but I tried anyways. So I asked him if he wanted to hang out, talked to him when I could and got to know him a little better. But earlier today I spoke to him like any other. This time however the topic changed to that of romance. He said he was interested in a girl, I of course asked a little about her and what she did. I now know she's a dancer also, did I mention this guy is a break dancer? Ha. Completely different from what I am. I cheered him on and said my good lucks, he mentions that there was another girl he was interested in but this time didn't elaborate on what type she was. By this time my heart is sinking. He goes on to ask if I had anyone in mind, I said yes and he gives me his own advice saying he is going to hook me up with this guy. I tell him no thanks I don't need it. As his final act he says that I should just go for it and tell the guy my feelings. That was my window to tell him now. I caught him at the last minute while he was saying he was going off to eat. So I gather up all my courage and tell him that he is the one I'm interested in.
There was a pause. The response I get was not one I was expecting. I got this ;) as a response. To give a little more information this guy uses this smiley all the time in almost every message he sends. Since I have no idea what to make of this I'm just calling this a rejection. I haven't spoken to him yet. Although I did send him a question of 'why did you place that smiley there?' but I haven't got a response yet. Maybe he's thinking it over or decided not to talk to me anymore. I have no clue.
Right now I'm feeling sad that he could have just said 'sorry' or something akin to that but not to have a response is bad.
Finished up finals week and ready for vacation. Went to my Dad's little police party then to my aunts house the next day. They were off to Arkansas to visit my cousin. He's a newly wed and well trying to save money so no cross country trips for him yet. My brother is also in Iraq right now he says he's babysitting essentially.
So the guy I'm interested in right now is one of those energetic lovable types. I met him before but I vaguely remember it, I doubt he knows it too. He started hanging around the Art building (I was doing workstudy). I get out at certain times out of the week so Tuesday's and Thursday's I'm there until 5pm. I get out and he's around the Dance studio so I stop and talk for a while. This goes on for a short while until school is out. My first impression is he is waiting for one of the ballet girls but apparently not. I asked him one day why he was around there when the ballet class wasn't meeting that day. He didn't have an answer. Of course he said he wasn't waiting for anyone either. I guess it was just my imagination that there would be anything.
I added him to myspace he said add him to facebook instead, I did. Saw his total of 'friends' for both sites... 400 on each. Mr. Popular. heh. I knew I didn't have a chance but I tried anyways. So I asked him if he wanted to hang out, talked to him when I could and got to know him a little better. But earlier today I spoke to him like any other. This time however the topic changed to that of romance. He said he was interested in a girl, I of course asked a little about her and what she did. I now know she's a dancer also, did I mention this guy is a break dancer? Ha. Completely different from what I am. I cheered him on and said my good lucks, he mentions that there was another girl he was interested in but this time didn't elaborate on what type she was. By this time my heart is sinking. He goes on to ask if I had anyone in mind, I said yes and he gives me his own advice saying he is going to hook me up with this guy. I tell him no thanks I don't need it. As his final act he says that I should just go for it and tell the guy my feelings. That was my window to tell him now. I caught him at the last minute while he was saying he was going off to eat. So I gather up all my courage and tell him that he is the one I'm interested in.
There was a pause. The response I get was not one I was expecting. I got this ;) as a response. To give a little more information this guy uses this smiley all the time in almost every message he sends. Since I have no idea what to make of this I'm just calling this a rejection. I haven't spoken to him yet. Although I did send him a question of 'why did you place that smiley there?' but I haven't got a response yet. Maybe he's thinking it over or decided not to talk to me anymore. I have no clue.
Right now I'm feeling sad that he could have just said 'sorry' or something akin to that but not to have a response is bad.