Hi

[deepanalysis]

I just want to say, my name is Damian. I am 22 years old, a gay male from New York. I was molested by a cousin when I was very, very young and had a difficult time dealing with particularly the sexual fantasies that I had afterward. The fantasies that I had never really went away and I have come to terms with everything for the most part. I don't

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[jreilly4261]

I also was abused by an older cousin. It was very confusing. For the longest time I felt so guilty. He was caught with another boy and went to counseling and stuff. I had thought for the longest time that my mom and my aunt (his mom) knew what had happened with us (over the course of several years), but nobody ever talked to me about it. So it really felt like a dirty secret. It wasn't until I was about 28 that talked to my aunt and learned she didn't know anything about it. So I talked to my mom, thinking that maybe my aunt was having selective memory issues. She didn't know anything had happened either, but tried to assure me that she would have done something and talked to me if she knew. The first person I ever talked to about it was a counselor I'd been seeing for a year when I was 22. So I thought I was prepared to talk to my aunt and mom about it a few years later. That event was very disturbing, but now that it is out in the open, I feel a bit better, though I still have some guilty feelings about it and about

ugh ya know the feeling

[thomas_allen88]

My whole live is in my first post on here way back up till 12 or 13, rest of my life is my journal what was nothing but abuse that I deal with ever day. I'm 19 yrs old and I'm not the "good little faggot I try and portray, I'm really- “A hyperactive emotionally innocent but disturbed, sexual and physically abused, incompetent emancipated at 13 devilish little boy what’s easily intimidated”, sometimes annoying that lacks enough common sense at a time to know it was wrong and not tell anyone that sex is not a sport what to be played at all costs with every person that runs across me-, that's been committed couple times to the ‘mental house’ (three years out of my life so far) last year twice to the "mental Health hospital for couple week each time. Alcohol rehab couple time, took three time before I figured out what they wanted me to stop drinking,The first time at 11,then 14,17 and I haven't caught on yet an ya I'm really 19

[quietpathos]

I was physically abused, but I'll respond anyway.

Welcome!

You were sexually abused, and you're gay. But you aren't gay because you survived sexual abuse. There are correlation studies that show abused men have gotten into homosexual relationships or thought about one (see Dr. Dan Sonkin's book, Wounded Boys/Heroic Men), but correlations do not show cause and effect; they show just that - connections.

Also, it's pretty common for survivors to get aroused during the attack, and possibly fantasise about it afterwards. This is a physiological response and has nothing to do with consent. Further, you were a child, you could not competently give consent. He took advantage of you. There's no excuse for it. Finally, the sexual fantasies could just be a defence mechanism to heal - and there's nothing wrong with that. They are fantasies.

Take care, and I hope you find a good therapist.

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[sherry123456789]

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