Comments | abusedboys: Anyone still about?

drenshawtennant in abusedboys

Anyone still about?

Feb 07, 2013 00:15

No? Well... I'm just going to pretend there is, because otherwise... it's just not fair... I'm 41, and I've only recently begun to have memories of sexual abuse, though the symptoms I've had all my life seem to be indicative of it. I'm getting some help, but feel more and more lost and confused and have great difficulty even accepting what's ( Read more... )

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thomas_allen88 February 10 2013, 15:52:30 UTC

I never stopped thinking about it and I'm only 24, part of my life everyday. I've written about it no end and the only thing I've found what is it gets easier to do after while and easier to understand the how and why but more so gives me some piece of mind what I can write about it and understand. As to the why, mmmm that's bothering me the most.
I'm to guess there is some reason for the like "I'm supposed to write about it". God knows how many state shrinks or private ones after, to me, them not having been thru it all I ever felt I got was lip service and that one phase "I understand what your going thru". There is no way they can know that.

drenshawtennant February 13 2013, 01:50:34 UTC

Thanks for that. To hear what you're going through, and that writing about it does help, and that it gets easier means a lot to me. I mean, I know writing about things helps, I've done it with other stuff; depression, anxiety, violence, adoption, grief, self-harm, suicide, hallucinations and such, and it's always more beneficial for that to be through my fiction, where it seems to emerge organically. But this... I don't know. It feels unapproachable. And the other stuff has always been part of my life. The sexual abuse memories have really only begun recently and are somehow deeply shocking but at the same time expected and familiar in a way I can't make sense of ( ... )

mmmm thomas_allen88 February 13 2013, 02:39:20 UTC

your welcome, For me it helps to wright about it a lot more that talk about it..
good luck

drenshawtennant February 13 2013, 03:07:33 UTC

Yes, thank you again, that's a really valuable point and means a lot to me -I've been spending a lot of time just worrying about why I'm having trouble getting to doing that instead of just trying to do it and making a start.
Cheers for that, and take care.

ashbowie February 11 2013, 17:57:24 UTC

We're still here, how many that is and how often we read is debatable, but feel free to post what is on your mind. We'll chime in and help as we are able.

You are not alone, your life will get better if you are willing to put in the time and effort.

Best of luck,
J

drenshawtennant February 13 2013, 02:08:02 UTC

I really appreciate that, it was a difficult step to make, but I'm glad I did. My life has been getting better of late, and it's been suggested that may be one of the reasons behind this history coming up now. It does feel like yet another thing to front up to, but is probably the bottom line of all the other stuff.
I'll keep chipping away at it, I suppose. Not feeling so alone is a double-edged sword, it's deeply upsetting knowing others suffer as well, and while I've always known that, somehow this coming up for me makes that knowledge even more distressing.
Thanks for your support and positivity.
All the best.
Jonah.

66davoi May 12 2013, 08:33:09 UTC

Hey - read your posting. I am now 46, I had an abusive childhood, sexually, mentally & physically - I have been for counselling, seen psychologists & psychiatrists. Can say it has been a slow process. I went, hoping for help over my experiences & how it connects with my life now, & my inability to form relationships ( ... )