Confused

[itsnotheweather]

Sometimes I think about what has happened over the past and I get confused so much because most of the time I was physically abused was when I was younger until I was about 11.. and during that period of time it didn't bug me as much as now.. now I am 14. I don't really know how to explain it.. like of course I didn't like it, and I hurt.. but it

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[fizit]

It's growth :)

Hey there,
I'm just about to turn 27, my second step-father did much to hurt me, my mother, my family. My mother was with this guy from the time I was 6, through til just before I turned 11. My soul did't feel it at the time, the burden in my heart too much for my young shoulders to carry. Later as I gained the strength of maturity, I learned to nurture my own hurts. The first step is ackowleding that they are there to begin with, that recognition does bring back the hurt, now able to be felt, and in so doing, released.

[siobhan_1]

Didn't really hit me until my late teens-20s. Which makes sense if you think that when you were living through it, you had to sort of make yourself numb, physically and emotionally, in order to survive without going crazy.

Plus, you are at an age when feelings in anyone are topsy-turvy, because you're a teen. Our brains really are different then, because they are growing and reorganizing pathways, and it can lead to emotional turmoil.

Do you have a counselor at school or anyone else to talk to? Ideally you should never have to see the person who abused you ever again, but of course this isn't an ideal world.

[wlkinonsunshine]

The hurt I endured in my past never really sunk in until I was 17. I lived through so much I think I was just numb like the other person said. When I finally went away to college, everything just seemed to come falling down upon me. I think it was just me finally being able to deal with things and be able to feel things because so much emotion at home was supressed. I wasn't allowed to be upset or cry because I just got yelled at more or my mom got hit around more...It's pretty normal I think.

I understand.

[emugirl]

I went through the same thing when I was about your age. Up until about 10th grade, I was abused by my brother since I could remember. During the years where it was extremely bad (6th grade-10th grade) I never told a single soul what was happening. I kept making excuses for the cuts and bruises and for my lack of social communication and lose of friendships. There was just no need to tell, in my mind. Things were as they had always been, and I didn't even realize how bad the abuse was. Once I was old enough to realize what my brother was doing to me was wrong, I started fighting back and coming out to people about my abuse. Although he never got in a lot of trouble, especially form my parents, he did however stop most of the abuse. I believe this was mainly because he knew I was old enough now to go to the police if I wanted to. I am now 19 years old, and he has since moved out, gotten married, and living on his own. I have no relationship with my brother what-so-ever anymore, and I hardly even bring up what had happened to

i feel for you

[daloverlyme]

i grew up being sexually abused and raped. im 19 and now have a 7 yr old daughter from it. best -of-luck

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