this weekend has felt endless in an amazing way. i haven't slept enough at all. two parties, one freaks and geeks fest/ cake fight,walking around in the sun, i haven't gone to sleep before 4:30 AM for the past three nights.

i ate a gray's papaya recession special next to this girl who plays a character on the only soap opera i watch and watched some guy very drunk guy attempt to fondle my friend.it was weird.

it feels like i have this heavy weight on my chest, it hurts to breathe and all i do is cough all the time. i hate being sick.

tonight was pretty nice. two cup of noodles, four broken bottles and a couple of bands later i liked going home with you guys the best. i liked dancing around in a room with only a couple of other kids and whispering jokes and secrets over loud bands. i didn't like the weird naked guy at the party or the weird naked guy i encountered on the train.i ( Read more... )

got out of work early, tried to convince some girl to come with me and gary at a place i remember going to on new years. walked and argued around queens to arrive at a small hotel , almost walk into a shelter instead because of a room number mix-up and ended up getting pretty drunk on the account of very little being in my stomach.beer was spilled ( Read more... )

i've been writing letters alot, it feels really nice. yesterday was nice, minus the being tired and minus the 12:30 AM staff meeting i saw everyone at once and it's something i miss an awful lot. we went to bagel zone and ate apples and cups of noodle(BEEF!)and made hand scenes. i kinda of like feeling in a gang walking down the street sometimes. i ( Read more... )

i'm up to 67 Hh's. i'm not that sad, i've been thinking alot about things that have changed and people i miss who used to be around. they haven't been around in a long time so i guess i shouldn't even think about them, but yea ( Read more... )

going to work soon, i haven't been there for more than a week. my chest kind of hurts and it looks horrible outside. but i am eating a peanut butter sandwich on toast and drinking delicious tea. i miss being outside and feeling well. i miss eating indian food and taking red light pictures with my friends. i think i have a cavity and i'm still kind ( Read more... )

i'm sick of being sick and coughing every minute.and just about everything else going on in my head.i feel kind of horrible and i can't even sleep because i wake up every two hours during the night.

happy happy 18th birthday baby ( Read more... )

i feel pretty sick,my whole body hurts,i kind of feel like i want to sleep but can't. this weekend was kind of nice, a good show and seeing people i haven't seen in awhile.i missed that.i honestly don't know how to fix anything though ( Read more... )