AU September
I realized as I lay down to sleep
We haven't spoke in weeks
So many things that I'd like to know
Come have a talk with me
I need a sign, something I can see
Why all the mystery?
I try not to fall for make believe
But what is reality?
Where do we go?
What do we know?
Life has to have a meaning
Show me the light
Show me the way
Show that you're listening
Show me that you love me
Show me that you walk with me
Hopefully, just above me
Heaven's watching over me
Guess it's funny how I say thanks to you
For all you've given me
Sometimes the price of what you gave to me
I can't stop questioning
O God of love, peace, and mercy
Why so much suffering?
I pray for the world, it gets worse to me
Wonder if you're listening
When people go
Why do they go?
Why don't you choose me?
But someday I know
I'm gonna go
I hope you're waiting for me
Show me that you love me
Show me that you walk with me
Hopefully, just above me
Heaven's watching over me
Maybe we'll talk
Some other night
Right now I'll take it easy
Won't spent my time
Waiting to die
Enjoy the life I'm living
Show me that you love me
Show me that you walk with me
Hopefully, just above me
Heaven's watching over me
I wish we could talk Professor. I have so many questions and I don't know what to do. It's not like I can just lay down and pack it in. You know I don't do that no matter how scared I am.
Remember that time we had to deal with the Chase mansion back in Perivale? I don't mind saying I was that half scared of it. I was so angry with you for making me go there. I think the only person I'd ever been that angry with before that was my Mum. I thought I knew what evil was back then That house, something in it was evil and I knew it. That's why I burned it down but you made me go back to when the evil was real and I found out what I thought was evil was just kids games wasn't it Professor?
Manisha's flat being firebombed and her being killed, that was just petty evil. Sad little people stuck in their fear and trying to burn it out.
The mansion was just the old left over breath of something evil that we'd stopped decades before. Fenric was my first experience with what evil really could be and I still thought that we could win. I loved you back then, thought you needed me to watch your back for you.
I didn't understand the Daleks the first time, didn't realize they were exactly what evil can be. Never caring about anything at all they were just there to kill. No mercy, no hate, no love, nothing inside at all except the mission to kill anything that wasn't them. When we killed them half of the galaxy burned with them and the rest of the Time Lords.
I'm not sure I can pay the price for what you gave me Professor. I know that somewhere you're still travelling in time with your other selves, the ones I never met. I hope we can get together and talk sometime even if you won't know me or know how I feel.
I want to walk with you on these alien worlds. I want you to know I hate you sometimes.
I don't want to be alone.