Reality hit late last night. and it's been becoming ever clearer all day. It's been a long day. I don't quite know what to think yet, how to descrivbe what and how i'm feeling. I feel drained. I feel saddened. I feel shaken. I feel scared. I hate seeing all the cops on campus. I hate seeing the roads blocked off. I hate seeing the yellow ( Read more... )

wow, the worst mass shooting in US history. with all the high school shootings while i was in high school i tried to imagine what it would feel like to be somewhere where that happened. this complete numbness was never what i imagined. i feel nothing. maybe it just hasn't sunk in yet. PRESIDENT BUSH IS GOING TO COME TOMORROW!!!!???? (maybe, ( Read more... )

In case anyone else has heard....(Hatchett that was incredibly surprising to have a voicemail from you when i woke up ( Read more... )

In other news...

Happy Birthday to Jadeddiva

To anyone whose bday i missed, i grovel at your feet to ask for forgiveness. and while i'm at it, incase i lose my head, drop of the face of the earth, or otherwise disappear and forget....happy early bdays to Krazysidhe March 6, talisellestar April 5, and Fiercenailbunny April 25 (which just happens to also be my dad's bday ( Read more... )

grrrr on Colts winning.....so totally GO BEARS!!!!!!! Yes, I am a Patriots fan. I also hate the Colts with a burning firery passion....always have, even when living in Evansville. I hate them more now that they have the Patriots former kicker (though it is much the Patriots' fault for not renewing his contract, so i'm angry with them too, but ( Read more... )

Because I really really don't want to work....i'm compiling a list of the "You might be a military brat if..." lists on the internet....these are just the ones that either apply to me, or i find amusing (though most of them do apply to some extent to me ( Read more... )

just threw together a piece of shit abstract to submit to the conference my department holds every year...it's kind of expected that all students writing a thesis present, so i had no choice. *sobs* well the experience will at least be good for me. So I thought I'd update real quick instead of going right back to agonizing over the 25 page ( Read more... )

I need to get a tape recorder type thing to keep next to my bed. I get all my best ideas for writing (both creatively and for thesis) while drifting off to sleep, and since i don't want to wake up enough to write them down, well, I can record my thoughts to listen to in the morning. so, yeah ( Read more... )

About a week ago(tomorrow night) I dyed my hair brown. Basically I was thinking I should get back to my natural color as I'm about to *shudder* enter the real world (hopefully temporaraly). The color turned out darker than expected...probably a reaction with the red...however it's definitely an almost-black brown when the box most definitely said ( Read more... )

I'm going away for the night....not that anyone will really miss me, but i just thought i'd let you all know. I just need to get away from Blacksburg and *try* to not think about my thesis one last time before the semester actually starts ( Read more... )