Alive
[PG] Alive
Pairing: reader x Sungmin (or you could imagine it was someone else -_-)
Genre: failed!angst.
Summary: even though he's gone, he's alive.
note: you might have chanced upon this before if you were browsing the completed section of fanfics in sj-w.
It's one of those times when you hear something that destroys your world completely. It shatters every part of you, leaving you in millions of pieces, pieces that cannot be pieced together again. You promised to do something with him, but you cannot keep that promise anymore. Because he is gone. You feel like everything is surreal. Everyone's pointing at you, staring and glaring with pity and loath. You hate it. You want to scream, you want to confide in someone, you want to be able to pour your heart out to someone. But then you realize, the only person who listens to you is gone.
--
He lay as beautiful as ever, fragile and still. His lips were lightly closed and so were his eyes, hands on top of each other. His face was pale, like someone who has never been in sunlight before.
You look at the skies as the thunder roared, the gray clouds were gathering, it made the day even duller. Everyone was clad in black, all wearing gloomy and agonized faces. But you were the only one with a different expression, you were faking a smile. As you moved up the line to say your goodbyes, you ponder on what you should say. It would be your last time seeing him and talking to him. But then again, the last time was gone.
Before you knew it, you were supposed to say your goodbyes already. You hesitantly walk up to his coffin and looked at him. Something sharp pierced right through your heart. You can feel the tears coming, not wanting to let it fall, you hold up your head, but it falls anyway. The words you wanted to say finally came to you. "Min," you began. "You've fought.. well and, it was a hard battle. Though you lost.. I know that God, took you.. he saved you from suffering further.. he, he set you free.." you choked. "What are.. you doing now..? Do you know.." you bit your lower lip and took a deep breath. Your tears fell on his cheeks, rolling down to his lips. "that I love you?"
The long overdue rain came down slowly. You turned around and walked out of the shelter and towards the tree near the edge. As you get drenched, you know that God is crying with you. You try to smile again but instead, you cry. You don't bother to cover your face or hide from the others, you just cried.
The rain continued pouring gently as you wailed, the scene of the bright city lights in front of you didn't get dimmer like how everything around you felt like it was. Sungmin's death didn't affect the world.
"I'm... alive.."
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yep that's about it. -_- and because I suck.bucketofshit SUPPORT! ;D
ps. thanks for all the wonderful comments I've had so far~ :D
Pairing: reader x Sungmin (or you could imagine it was someone else -_-)
Genre: failed!angst.
Summary: even though he's gone, he's alive.
note: you might have chanced upon this before if you were browsing the completed section of fanfics in sj-w.
It's one of those times when you hear something that destroys your world completely. It shatters every part of you, leaving you in millions of pieces, pieces that cannot be pieced together again. You promised to do something with him, but you cannot keep that promise anymore. Because he is gone. You feel like everything is surreal. Everyone's pointing at you, staring and glaring with pity and loath. You hate it. You want to scream, you want to confide in someone, you want to be able to pour your heart out to someone. But then you realize, the only person who listens to you is gone.
--
He lay as beautiful as ever, fragile and still. His lips were lightly closed and so were his eyes, hands on top of each other. His face was pale, like someone who has never been in sunlight before.
You look at the skies as the thunder roared, the gray clouds were gathering, it made the day even duller. Everyone was clad in black, all wearing gloomy and agonized faces. But you were the only one with a different expression, you were faking a smile. As you moved up the line to say your goodbyes, you ponder on what you should say. It would be your last time seeing him and talking to him. But then again, the last time was gone.
Before you knew it, you were supposed to say your goodbyes already. You hesitantly walk up to his coffin and looked at him. Something sharp pierced right through your heart. You can feel the tears coming, not wanting to let it fall, you hold up your head, but it falls anyway. The words you wanted to say finally came to you. "Min," you began. "You've fought.. well and, it was a hard battle. Though you lost.. I know that God, took you.. he saved you from suffering further.. he, he set you free.." you choked. "What are.. you doing now..? Do you know.." you bit your lower lip and took a deep breath. Your tears fell on his cheeks, rolling down to his lips. "that I love you?"
The long overdue rain came down slowly. You turned around and walked out of the shelter and towards the tree near the edge. As you get drenched, you know that God is crying with you. You try to smile again but instead, you cry. You don't bother to cover your face or hide from the others, you just cried.
The rain continued pouring gently as you wailed, the scene of the bright city lights in front of you didn't get dimmer like how everything around you felt like it was. Sungmin's death didn't affect the world.
"I'm... alive.."
--
yep that's about it. -_- and because I suck.bucketofshit SUPPORT! ;D
ps. thanks for all the wonderful comments I've had so far~ :D