What if
What if
Genre: {Failed}Angst
Rating: PG 13
Pairing: broken!pairing. you can choose whatever pairing you want idc :| {but I wrote this in kyumin P.O.V}
Summary: What if..
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When you glanced at me on our comeback stage, you looked at me straight in the eyes and gave me a quick and small smile, in that instant I felt my heart warm up and start to beat faster. I loved your smile, I loved the effect you had on me. I loved you. You then looked away from me and back at the roaring crowd and gave them an even bigger smile- more like a grin. I slowly and painfully teared my eyes away from your blissful face and faked a smile to our fans.
I faked a smile because I only wanted you to smile my real smile.
But you don't realize it, you continue to smile to everyone who greeted you, who cleaned up, who walked pass you. Sometimes I forget your smile is not for me or not because of me, but because you smile at me. That was the difference. But I still continue to hope that maybe, just maybe, you will see the true meaning behind my smile.
Because I love you.
And even though I know that I don't hold any place in your heart, I continue to hope that maybe just once, just for one time, you will tell me that you like me, that you enjoy my company, that you return my feelings.
But I know the truth, I have always known the truth, your smile was never for me. I can never make you smile, you just smile at me, that polite smile that says "Good morning" or "How are you?", no matter how long I wait, it can never change to be "I love you" or "I miss you".
If only your smile was for me, but it isn't right? But I'm okay like this, I have always been like this. And even if I mean nothing to you, I'm still happy this way.
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Hello~ I haven't been typing all my writen fics but I will do so after my exams are over rofl.
What if and Angela is addicting, adding onto it is It has to be you. :|
I think I'll be writing a Hanchul {LEGASP! IT'S NOT KYUMIN!} fic soon after crying shit (if you have absolutely no idea what I'm saying read this)
oh and I'm pimping for itsincurable so yeah. :D gosh why am I like this -_-