Because I don't want you to know where I am. Because then you'll see my heart in the saddest state it's ever been. This is no place to try and live my life. I'm sorry for the person I became. I'm sorry that it took so long for me to change. Who I am hates who I've been ( Read more... )

So my phone doesn't work at all and even when I charge it and keep it plugged in the outlet, it still doesn't work. I need a new battery or a new phone. It's alright though, being out of contact with people has made me realize how much I abused them. I'm prepared to come home to no one with open arms. I know I've pretty much blocked off all my ( Read more... )

I painted two pictures already.

As your enemy evolves, so must you.

I wrote Zack and Annie a letter today.
I hope Adra, Lauren, and Catalina get their gifts today.
I need Jordan's address. It'd be sweet if someone got that for me...

I had a dream about a woman last night. She was pale and had sunken cheekbones. She had eyes like ice and her hair was that pale blonde that isn't a real color. She just stared at me. She was a snake.

I realized something today that is very disheartening. People will fail me, time and time again. I can give them the hope that they can be happy, I can give them the hope that they might be good or at least smile, but I can’t honestly say I believe that they will change. I feel like I’m the control in every relationship I’ve ever been in. If I ( Read more... )

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I haven’t written in a while because I haven’t been motivated. I’ve been lazy and I regret it now. I’ve been collecting since I got here a collection of items to send home to loved ones. Catalina gets a ring I bought off some tattooed (drug-user) who made several comments about my shirt, over and over and over. Lauren gets two of those large beaded ( Read more... )

You can contact me at:

774 Sloop Point Lane
Kure Beach, NC 28449

No internet. Goodbye all.

I was looking at the leaves ( Read more... )