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[acidqueen]

i just listened to mer de noms and now i am listening to elliot smith XO. very ambitious of me. i dont know what i am trying to do to myself but maybe that its that i actually have feelings right now (rage at my cells, happy to have a home) and i can handle good music that has heavy connotations. seriously i usually avoid sad movies and music that

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[acidqueen]

go me. 5 minutes after this entry i FUCKED up what was already going badly. i will never be a molecular biologist. now i wait to tell the nice guy who is leaving next week and really needed this stuff to work today cuz it was his last chance to have it, that its fucked up. i hate when i mess stuff up that's my fault but its someone else' problem that i screwed up. its a helpless feeling. all i have got is guilty puppy eyes and hope he knows i feel bad, but that really doesnt help him at all anyways. i suck.