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[acidqueen31]

Here's Never-Post-Girl, back with another rangy angst-filled stupid fest.

So this summer has been pretty great. I spent a ton of time in NYC, which was amazing, and got my first taste of college, which I loved. Right now I'm working up in Massachusetts teaching kids Shakespeare, which is fucking perfect. I'm adoring my job. I love my co-workers. I

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[fahrenheit_f430]

You are ready and you're not a loser. It's the position that set off the memory, I'm the same with alcohol breath. Next time, you top and try not to switch positions with him until you're right on the edge.

Also, using a little reverse psychology on yourself might help: talk to him in rhetorical questions ('do you like that?', 'how does this feel?', 'is that good for you?', etc) as you'd be getting an internal 'he's consenting to me' effect that should overrule your brain's panic setting - 'he's going to hurt me' - with 'he's trusting me'.

I hate to say it, but there's no getting over it completely. You need to discover workarounds for the most common triggers that don't compromise what you need from a physical relationship. It might feel like you're banging your head against a brick wall for a while, but you will find what works for you and it'll be sooner rather than later. I've got faith in you, dude.