For Joey my only....

[ackasha]

LJ Friends Meme by coolerq
• You must tell 13 people about this game.
• Joey is the one that you love.
• Ashley is one you like but can't work out.
• You care most about Joey.
• Ashley is the one who knows you very well.
• Jessica is your lucky star.
• The Gift is the song that matches with Joey.
• cigarette-yellwocard is the song for Ashley.
• somewhere

Comments

[seckela]

Im happy to see you're still alive. I wish you kept in contact. I feel I have missed out on knowing so much about you new life, which seems great, which rocks. I want to hear from you, alot has happend with me too, it great stuff. Well talk to you later. My new cell phone # is 415-1739

Long Thought Of

[seckela]

So basically this is how it is.... I have been thinking long and hard and contemplating even saying something. I know you probably won't even get back to me on this but Im still doing it. First off, Im happy you are happy in your new life, I wanted to say that first. Now, I wanted to share with you the fact that I do miss you, even if as a friend. We shared great times and Im sorry I was usualy the fuck up of them

Re: Long Thought Of

[seckela]

I am so glad to hear that from you. I am sorry too. Sorry for taking so much out on you. My life is repetatively falling apart more and more everyday. I mean yeah I have a great guy but sometimes there's more to life than that, although that seems like crazy-talk. I have changed and I am a little more critical of people than I used to be. I didn't really mean what I said to you all those times. It just seems silly to think that we could be friends and I thought that if i was mad at you it would be easier to say that I didn't want to be your friend anymore. Life's just crazy and messed up and sometimes it's hard just to understand why. Like how Joey is the only person I have and if we have problems I have no one else to turn to.

Life's crazy and it sucks sometimes, really I wish it were a whole lot easier. And I know you wish the same.

Well anyway I got a little carried away there. What i mean is that I'm sorry I took so much stuff out on you. You didn't deserve it. Please forgive me.

Re: Long Thought Of

[seckela]

P.S. I didn't mean that I didn't want to be friends with you, I just thought it was too hard to be friends. Thats all. But yeah I miss all that stuff too, don't you remember?? That's when life was easy and the only problems we had then were ones we created for ourselves...

now we have the ones the world throws at us from the "bigger" picture. well i hope you ended up happier than I feel inside right now. To be honest...I was trying to make you feel jealous alot of the time by saying life was so great here. I mean come on I live with my parents...

you remember how they treated me.

Re: Long Thought Of

[seckela]

I felt more jealous just knowing that I had lost you to a world that I had thought was your hell... I forced you to run to your hell, I hated my self for it.