List 25 things you want to say to 25 different people but know you never will. Don’t say who they are.
1. No matter what happens, I will always love you like my own flesh and blood. I don't always agree with what you do, and sometimes you worry me, but you are my rock.
2. I hate that what happened between us ruined everything, and I hate building things up from shifty ground and a damaged foundation, but I will never take the blame. That's all yours, and part of me won't ever forgive you for it.
3. You saved my life a few years ago, philosophically speaking, and you've always stuck by my side. Thank you for always being there when I needed someone to fall back on.
4. Your behavior and complete lack of respect pisses me off to the nth degree. I hate what you're doing to yourself and the fact that you're not who you used to be at all. Seriously, find something more interesting and stimulating to discuss than your "new" favorite topic. It's getting old.
5. I'm happy to see you happy, but sometimes I think you're a little misled in your ideas about life. I know you have the potential to be so much more than you are, and the fact that you completely neglect that bothers me. I wish I could get you to live up to it, it's frustrating that I can't.
6. The time I spent with you I will never forget. You will always have part of my heart, no matter what paths our lives take. You are truly an incredible person, and I wish you the very best of luck in everything.
7. Sometimes I can't stand you, and other times I don't know what I'd do without you. You're far too intense about unimportant things. You need to just be yourself, and not what you think everyone wants you to be. Chill out and don't take everything so seriously, you just end up making an ass of yourself.
8. I wish the feeling was mutual, and sometimes I think it is, but I know things can't be how they used to be. It was good while it was there, and we were young and stupid and we made some mistakes along the way, but know that I never stopped caring.
9. I wish you would stand up for yourself. Just for one day, not take anyone's shit--and I mean ANYONE. And make a decision for once! Be independent! You're so damn dependent on everyone else that the true you gets all muddled and lost inbetween pathetic apologies.
10. You're amazing, intriguing, and I can't get enough of you. It's impossible, but you make me smile so much that it hurts. I try to act nonchalant, but my stomach ties all into knots around you.
11. I always looked up to you. You followed the beat of your own drum, and that was admirable. I can never apologize enough for or explain to you my one regret, for words cannot heal what you suffered because of it. But know that I regret it everyday, being any part of it, and I am truly sorry.
12. I don't understand you. I'm convinced there's something I'm being fooled into. You're everything I don't need in my life, yet I still want you around. I want to believe you wouldn't lie to me, but I know that you must be. I hate feeling used by you. But strangely enough, I regret none of it, regardless of how it ends up. (Although I know in the back of my mind it will be a secret I carry in my heart for years to come, because no matter what, I never lied when I said I care about you, with my entire being.)
13. You were the first one to really fool me. I don't know why you picked me, but I am a firm believer that everything is connected, so maybe you had to, for my future. I would have liked to get to know you as someone I could honestly be friends with, but you broke my heart from the get-go, so it never would have been possible. I don't understand why you did what you did, but I stopped holding my breath for an apology years ago.
14. You're out of your fucking mind. You're faker than fake, and I feel grateful for every day I spend without you in my life. I hate you and everything you stand for, and wish I could erase that period of my life you wormed your way into.
15. I can't deny that you still give me butterflies. You were everything I ever wanted in someone else, and I was so disappointed when you didn't choose me to spend your time with. I'm so much better than she is. I don't understand why you can't see it; it's plain as day. You also have an extremely low self-concept, and I never understood why--you dazzle and amaze me, still.
16. I wish that we had remained friends, but I suppose everyone grows in different directions. For a while, I hated everything you were, because you had some quality I failed to posess, to keep someone I could never have kept. I'm glad that we are talking again, you are a truly great girl.
17. You need to give yourself a break. You're smarter than you think, and for your age, you're way ahead of the game. Never lose your self-confidence; it gets harder when the naivety fades. You will do amazing things.
18. I hate everything you stand for. You're too perfect, and it bothers me to the core of my being, because no one is all sugar and spice. I can't wait to see the skeletons in your closet coming to choke the life out of you, one fine day.
19. You're disgusting, honestly. Don't look at me, don't talk to me, don't try to wrap your sugar-coated words around me. You use, abuse, and throw away, and you make me sick.
20. You're so fucking annoying. God damnit. Stop bitching about everything that you think is wrong in your life and go fucking get one. All you do is complain. Get out in the world and then you'll really have something to complain about instead of your stupid, worthless friends, your overpriced clothes, and the shady males you associate with. Please choke.
21. I won't ever forgive you for having him for so long, and ultimately breaking his heart. Now he can't even discern between what's truly good for him and what isn't.
22. I miss you. I know it's been many years, but I've never forgotten you. Every time I see you, I wish that we still talked. You were the first one I told when the most terrible event of my life occurred, and I don't think you believed me. Thanks a whole hell of a lot for that one.
23. I miss you and our brutal honesty with each other. There's an empty feeling in my life because I don't see you anymore. You'll always be in my heart, because we shared some deep, personal secrets unabashedly, and it was a good experience.
24. I love you to death, and I wish we could spend more time together. I hate being inbetween you and her, and I hate even more to watch you fight. I wish more than anything for you to be happy, because you deserve it. You'll always be family.
25. You have such a good personality, but it's overshadowed by the fact that you're so socially awkward. I joke a lot, but some of it is half-true. I used to think you hated me, but I think you were just angry about what I was unintentionally doing. Let's call a truce.