Soooo... My friends all left today for college.... I am sad and i have no idea how i am going to make new friends. I was crying when i left megan's house even thought i told her i would be strong. it is so hard not having my best friends here..... on the other hand my old coworker tiffany texted me tonight.... so maybe i do still have a couple of ( Read more... )

SO... I am driving on my way to flagstaff and i see sunflowers. I smile and i think of Aunt Stephanie. For the first time in a long time i did not cry or start to feel sad seeing something that reminds me of her! I don't know if i should be happy or feel bad about this.but After going to Colorado this year and meeting my Uncle's girl-friend i have ( Read more... )

SO today i am so very excited!!!-------SUNS GAMEE!! thats right :]]] i wanted to go to a Suns game and i brought tickets and now i'm going :D ( Read more... )

okay so i think i am feeling a little better about aunt steph but i still am torn and missing some pieces that will be hard to fill...... i've been thinking about the future and it scares me. it scares me so much i just want to hide in a corner.... so many of my friends are going to college away from me and it is so scary, depressing, and miserable ( Read more... )

so i am just very sad. i want to feel better. i want to be happy like seth. i want to remember her and not bust out crying. i dont know how to fix this.

Colorado ( Read more... )

right now im really sad. i am dreading going to colorado. josh says it will be okay. but he doesnt understand that colorado is that reason i was so sad. because colorado IS aunt stephanie. and i just dont want to go up there because i am still so  upset about aunt stephanie killing herself. i dont want to go to that house again because i keep ( Read more... )

umm i am requesting information for colleges :] its fun... even though i think i might just be going to an instate college like NAU or ASU but oh well still fun ;]  hmmmmm i realllly like Joshyy and i hate not getting to see him alot :/ it so lame!! but i get to see him like once or twice a week thats better then none!!! hmmm welll next week is the ( Read more... )

annoyed as fuck ( Read more... )

Hmmm so right now i am just itting around waiting for people to get home so that joshy can come over..... lets see whats new........ school is okay... i really despise government though. i really enjoy the college thing we are doing in english class... i LOVE art it is so fun :]]].... and math is just...... well i think its okayyy... i'll see once ( Read more... )