feelin that weird feeling again. 

 when the FUCK is the demo going to be done? i CANNOT WAIT ANY LONGER TO HEAR THIS

 i have 450 in my bank now, getting 750 from taxes. and a bunch more from work, i cant wait to start my sleeve in may. 

 this week i will more than likely need to consume a lot of xanex.

 Not only am i getting paid 30 an hour to film and 20 an hour to edit, or vise versa i cant remember its been so long. but i dont even have to film with my own stuff and put hours on my heads. I love how i can come to salisbury and work, but i cant find a job in charlotte. go fucking figure. 

 HAHA im on the phone with my dad right now, he says my mom used to tell him to shave his beard off too! HAHAHAHAHAHAH. 

 i just talked to my parents, they will follow me wherever i go. i feel much better, but im still afraid of them dying. 

 why do i think about this shit? all it does is depress me. i know that it is inevitable but thats YEARS away, like 30 or 40 years away. yet i still think about what life will be like without my parents. ive been missing them so much lately, maybe its because im almost ready to graduate and that when i do, ill be moving to NYC without them? without ( Read more... )

 i just got the chills listening to music. so crazy how music has such a huge impact on how i feel. 
<3 August burns red

 i seriously get so upset when niptuck is done for the season. now i have to wait until september to watch it again. i really thought christian was checkin out this season and it was going to be over. BUT NO, doctors switched up some records by mistake and christian does NOT have cancer anymore.  He married liz because it was best for the future, ( Read more... )