It seems my efforts of trying to figure out people has become self-destructive and unfulfilling. Sooo, the next logical step is to stop trying to sort things out with people. If they can't do it themselves and I've exhausted all my available resources to help them then I am just wasting my time. Now this is not me getting hellbent on the world ( Read more... )

The weekend was eventful yet not much so. Just got back from my aunt and uncles place. It was a good time, since me and my cousin decided to make a "bee double-ee double-are you in" in the middle of the 'festivities' that are a family get together. Friday I went to Have A Nice Day with George and Jeni, for Jeni's aunt's b-day. One of her other ( Read more... )

Love anything and your heart will be wrung and possibly broken. If you want to make sure of keeping it intact you must give it to no one, not even an animal. Wrap it carefully round with hobbies and luxuries: avoid all entanglements. Lock it up safe in the casket or coffin of your selfishness. But in that casket-safe,dark,motionless,airless-it will ( Read more... )

Waitin', watchin' the clock, it's four o'clock, it's got to stop ( Read more... )

I am tired of people. I am tired of being a cuddle bitch. I am tired of fighting battles that can't be won. I am tired of being right. I'm tired of the imbalance of reality. I'm just tired of everything.

My shadow's ( Read more... )

Be very careful if you make a woman cry, because God counts her tears. The woman came out of a man's rib. Not from his feet to be walked on. Not from his head to be superior, but from the side to be equal. Under the arm to be protected, and next to the heart to be loved. ~Talmud ( Read more... )

I would ever get what I deserve? Well, I did.. until I realized I never will. I guess taking risks and making leaps is too much; not for everyone but for those that matter. Is the fear of making a bad choice worth passing at the chance of success? Is security of consistency better than hopes of happiness? Do you place your heart in the hands ( Read more... )

Following now uncommon tradition, I had some ritas at Tumbleweed last night. As (almost) always, it was a blast. Regardless of my desire for the good times to continue, I had to part ways with my companions. I proceeded to go home and talk to Amy for a bit (she is still alive!) then pass out on the couch. Woke up at 2:30 this morning with that ( Read more... )

I wish things made sense to me; that I had control of my fate and really felt it; that I didn't have to cross illegal boundries to find what makes me happy; that what felt so natural didn't also feel so wrong; that I could break out of my personal prison and get what I deserve; that I wasn't so passive; that every moment of happiness was not ( Read more... )

It's times when I realize that other people don't think at all like me that I lose faith in humanity. Even my own friends seem to lack sense and any type of reasoning ability. What I have learned recently ( Read more... )