I know the feeling. In a way I usually end up feeling in this state of limbo when I'm actually content. My creative processes suffer, I feel empty, and I feel trapped.
Looking over my life, in Rochester for example, when I finally was able to achieve a number of things I'd been struggling for for quite a long time, moving out on my own and getting a job to be self-sufficient, being near to Brandon after a long-distance relationship, etc -- at a time when I should have been the most happy persay, I was actually feeling more negative emotions than ever. I think it's because angst and loneliness sort of remind me I'm alive and not just aimlessly existing like a zombie.
Some of us are just naturally not "happy people" and I think those who are have trouble accepting this.
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Looking over my life, in Rochester for example, when I finally was able to achieve a number of things I'd been struggling for for quite a long time, moving out on my own and getting a job to be self-sufficient, being near to Brandon after a long-distance relationship, etc -- at a time when I should have been the most happy persay, I was actually feeling more negative emotions than ever. I think it's because angst and loneliness sort of remind me I'm alive and not just aimlessly existing like a zombie.
Some of us are just naturally not "happy people" and I think those who are have trouble accepting this.
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