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I am so ranty today that i need to segregate the writhing mess that is my thoughts, in nice little subsections to make them vaguely coherent. It's too long to be posted on FB so LJ will get the brunt of it.
Birthday
People that i didn't know, know that i existed, are wishing me 'happy birthday'.
I don't have happy birthdays. I have depressing ones, ones that make me question alot of things including my life...
And don't ask me, 'How was your birthday?' Anywhom. On my birthday, i did nothing. Nothing at all. I merely existed. I studied a bit... Yeah...
And what a happy existence that was.
But i did treat myself to 'Notes from Underground' and a long reading spree. That was nice~
I like the Underground Man. I feel like him most days.
School
I really have too much on my plate.
No one can stay sane with 3U maths. I don't know how the 4U kids do it.
I would drop it but I really, really like the work in it…
Add 2 majors and then you have a recipe for disaster. Especially if the cook is a procrastinator of almost the worst kind. Seriously… Often results in just staying up the week before to cram. This is the first time, I’ve actually STUDIED for the entire HSC year… I really need to put in at least 3-4 hours of study a day.
And I wonder why I’ve been getting not the greatest of marks…
There is not enough evidence for Pope Joan end of story. I like colours and i don't want to link them to the **** that is belonging. End of story.
Pishaw, i have to maintain the school website, i have to be a good prefect, slide show, formal...
I wish that all my assignments/assements weren't due TOGETHER. Term 3 is the killer term. 7 subject assessments, 1 major due, 7 trials, graduation cermony to fix up, year book to fix up, slideshow to advise on and SRC things to do. This term is bad enough…
Money
I hate the stuff.
If i get a job, i will fail. If i don't get a job i will still fail because I WON'T BE ABLE TO PAY FOR ANYTHING well namely tutor and reformatting my netbook.
And then there is jersey, formal, textbooks, flowers, resources, books, fabric and all the junk i would like to get. I think i'm going to have to resort to hijacking other people's gardens just to get my flowers... And there is the bugs which keep eating all my beautiful strawberries. I have to sew all my stuff of the top of my head because i can't afford to pay for patterns. And then i wonder why the proportions are so weird. OTL
Hell, i don't have any money because i spent it all on train tickets so i could get to the fricken state library so i can do my fricken major. Bugger my looks which scream out 'I AM NOT ELIGABLE FOR A CHILD'S TICKET SO YOU NEED TO GIVE ME SUSIPIOUS LOOKS WHEN I DON'T HAVE MY CONCESSION WITH ME!'
Oh bugger this. When will my second scholarship kick in? I don’t care about the damn award. I need the money. If i don't get a uni scholarship, money woes hit me now! Actually don't. Life is hard enough without them. I wish the HSC was a one and a half year thing. Maybe 5 terms instead of 4. Less stressful and sleep eating it will become.
Human Beings
Seriously, stop making me do everything for you. It's not that hard, you do it yourself. I am not a teacher, i am not qualified to mark your work so don't blame me if you didn't get the marks you wanted because you thought you could take it easy after i checked it and thought it would be alright. Alright is not perfect, alright is alright.
Adults. I am relatively mature and i am as far as i know, not a teeny bopper. Please stop asking me for I.D to prove that i am not either ridicously under or overage for the venue.
I am also aware that buying 20 cans of V at once is weird but doesn't my school uniform clear up all your queries.
Stop saying that public schools don't deserve funding. It really riles me up when i hear about the funding PRIVATE schools are getting and the useless, useless stuff they are spending it on. Swimming pool? Seriously?
I am in a priority, in the west , public high school that is the smallest in the state, geographically. We fit 700 people and we're bursting at the seams. We were only eligible to get our science labs renovated which was lucky because the gas pipes were leaking.
We can't get aircon because the power grid can't support it. We can't get fully functioning heaters which don't gas us, because the government doesn't want to pay for it/process the paperwork. We can't stop the computers from breaking down because we can't afford to buy new ones and lastly we can't stop the ceiling from flaking on us because we also can't afford that. Also if the ceiling drips, we have to put a bucket that isn’t being used for vomit or blood under it.
What type of school has a BLOOD BUCKET?
Don't tell us that if we wanted a ceiling was actually sturdy that we should have gone to a private school or made it into selective. Some of us are too poor to and the rest of us would just like a chance to study in an environment that won't kill us.
So which school needs the funding: the school which needs a stable ceiling or the school with only 2 swimming pools?
But i forget... politicians children don't go to public schools. They're strictly private.
Ahh so ranty.
Birthday
People that i didn't know, know that i existed, are wishing me 'happy birthday'.
I don't have happy birthdays. I have depressing ones, ones that make me question alot of things including my life...
And don't ask me, 'How was your birthday?' Anywhom. On my birthday, i did nothing. Nothing at all. I merely existed. I studied a bit... Yeah...
And what a happy existence that was.
But i did treat myself to 'Notes from Underground' and a long reading spree. That was nice~
I like the Underground Man. I feel like him most days.
School
I really have too much on my plate.
No one can stay sane with 3U maths. I don't know how the 4U kids do it.
I would drop it but I really, really like the work in it…
Add 2 majors and then you have a recipe for disaster. Especially if the cook is a procrastinator of almost the worst kind. Seriously… Often results in just staying up the week before to cram. This is the first time, I’ve actually STUDIED for the entire HSC year… I really need to put in at least 3-4 hours of study a day.
And I wonder why I’ve been getting not the greatest of marks…
There is not enough evidence for Pope Joan end of story. I like colours and i don't want to link them to the **** that is belonging. End of story.
Pishaw, i have to maintain the school website, i have to be a good prefect, slide show, formal...
I wish that all my assignments/assements weren't due TOGETHER. Term 3 is the killer term. 7 subject assessments, 1 major due, 7 trials, graduation cermony to fix up, year book to fix up, slideshow to advise on and SRC things to do. This term is bad enough…
Money
I hate the stuff.
If i get a job, i will fail. If i don't get a job i will still fail because I WON'T BE ABLE TO PAY FOR ANYTHING well namely tutor and reformatting my netbook.
And then there is jersey, formal, textbooks, flowers, resources, books, fabric and all the junk i would like to get. I think i'm going to have to resort to hijacking other people's gardens just to get my flowers... And there is the bugs which keep eating all my beautiful strawberries. I have to sew all my stuff of the top of my head because i can't afford to pay for patterns. And then i wonder why the proportions are so weird. OTL
Hell, i don't have any money because i spent it all on train tickets so i could get to the fricken state library so i can do my fricken major. Bugger my looks which scream out 'I AM NOT ELIGABLE FOR A CHILD'S TICKET SO YOU NEED TO GIVE ME SUSIPIOUS LOOKS WHEN I DON'T HAVE MY CONCESSION WITH ME!'
Oh bugger this. When will my second scholarship kick in? I don’t care about the damn award. I need the money. If i don't get a uni scholarship, money woes hit me now! Actually don't. Life is hard enough without them. I wish the HSC was a one and a half year thing. Maybe 5 terms instead of 4. Less stressful and sleep eating it will become.
Human Beings
Seriously, stop making me do everything for you. It's not that hard, you do it yourself. I am not a teacher, i am not qualified to mark your work so don't blame me if you didn't get the marks you wanted because you thought you could take it easy after i checked it and thought it would be alright. Alright is not perfect, alright is alright.
Adults. I am relatively mature and i am as far as i know, not a teeny bopper. Please stop asking me for I.D to prove that i am not either ridicously under or overage for the venue.
I am also aware that buying 20 cans of V at once is weird but doesn't my school uniform clear up all your queries.
Stop saying that public schools don't deserve funding. It really riles me up when i hear about the funding PRIVATE schools are getting and the useless, useless stuff they are spending it on. Swimming pool? Seriously?
I am in a priority, in the west , public high school that is the smallest in the state, geographically. We fit 700 people and we're bursting at the seams. We were only eligible to get our science labs renovated which was lucky because the gas pipes were leaking.
We can't get aircon because the power grid can't support it. We can't get fully functioning heaters which don't gas us, because the government doesn't want to pay for it/process the paperwork. We can't stop the computers from breaking down because we can't afford to buy new ones and lastly we can't stop the ceiling from flaking on us because we also can't afford that. Also if the ceiling drips, we have to put a bucket that isn’t being used for vomit or blood under it.
What type of school has a BLOOD BUCKET?
Don't tell us that if we wanted a ceiling was actually sturdy that we should have gone to a private school or made it into selective. Some of us are too poor to and the rest of us would just like a chance to study in an environment that won't kill us.
So which school needs the funding: the school which needs a stable ceiling or the school with only 2 swimming pools?
But i forget... politicians children don't go to public schools. They're strictly private.
Ahh so ranty.