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[Private]
...I-- this-- What the hell just--
[It's possible the sound of a few heavy objects being thrown to the ground can be heard, but it stops quickly, followed by a long silence.]
...So it seems that I was not let astray in being informed of this place's ability to force a person into making a complete ass of himself, was I? The truly infuriating this is I was aware I was under a 'personality swap' of sorts, but was too caught up in idiocy to care. Thankfully, I don't seem to have made too bad an impression upon most I talked to, but it is intensely troubling to know that I cannot even rely upon the knowledge that I have control over my own actions and behavior.
But what the hell is there to be done? Obviously I can't fight against an entity capable of controlling my very thoughts and motives, but it is not at all acceptable to live by the whims of some sort of malevolent force that seems to enjoy causing humiliation.
Fuck. There must be some aspect of this that can be dealt with. I suppose I can always busy myself with picking up what stray inconvenient pieces are left over. Primarily that would mean Haruhi and Tamaki, of course...
Honestly, I can't believe I'd have so little foresight and self-control as to behave in that manner. Tamaki is necessary as long as he represents a piece of my history that I cannot do without. It's lucky he's such a moron, or else I might have caused irreparable damage.
Of course, I must keep in mind the problem, i.e. the strategic mis-steps. Of course the moment he and Haruhi ceased to be useful, I would discard them as easily as I did earlier this week. The problem, of course, is merely that I cannot afford to discard them for such a useless reason. I have no cause to feel guilt here. I can't stand a person like him, and I'll only deal with him as much as is expedient, so...
[Once again, a thump as something is thrown against the wall]
[Public]
It seems I've finally experienced one of these 'event' days. I apologize to anyone I may have offended in the past few days with any forwardness-- I assure you, that sort of behavior is not the norm for me.
Still, I suppose one must take the bad with the good, hmm? I am pleased to have met those of you I have spoken to as a result of this strange event. And I believe I made the offer of a beach party. It's not ordinarily the sort of idea I would have, but perhaps I'll speak to Tamaki and see what we can do.
[Filtered to Franziska]
I also believe I made you the offer of dinner, Miss von Karma. While I certainly would not think less of you for declining, considering, I would not go back on the offer.
[Filtered to Tamaki]
...Ah
Unfortunately, I must admit that upon further reflection, Haruhi said no such thing to me. In fact, the effects of the personality switch must have caused me to misunderstand him, and now the mistake is quite clear to me. As such, I hope you can simply disregard what I said as beyond my control. At any rate, I would prefer to ignore everything that's happened the past several days.
Do you have the candidates for the Host Club yet?
[Filtered to Haruhi]
It's my hope that we can just ignore the past several days. Is that acceptable?
...I-- this-- What the hell just--
[It's possible the sound of a few heavy objects being thrown to the ground can be heard, but it stops quickly, followed by a long silence.]
...So it seems that I was not let astray in being informed of this place's ability to force a person into making a complete ass of himself, was I? The truly infuriating this is I was aware I was under a 'personality swap' of sorts, but was too caught up in idiocy to care. Thankfully, I don't seem to have made too bad an impression upon most I talked to, but it is intensely troubling to know that I cannot even rely upon the knowledge that I have control over my own actions and behavior.
But what the hell is there to be done? Obviously I can't fight against an entity capable of controlling my very thoughts and motives, but it is not at all acceptable to live by the whims of some sort of malevolent force that seems to enjoy causing humiliation.
Fuck. There must be some aspect of this that can be dealt with. I suppose I can always busy myself with picking up what stray inconvenient pieces are left over. Primarily that would mean Haruhi and Tamaki, of course...
Honestly, I can't believe I'd have so little foresight and self-control as to behave in that manner. Tamaki is necessary as long as he represents a piece of my history that I cannot do without. It's lucky he's such a moron, or else I might have caused irreparable damage.
Of course, I must keep in mind the problem, i.e. the strategic mis-steps. Of course the moment he and Haruhi ceased to be useful, I would discard them as easily as I did earlier this week. The problem, of course, is merely that I cannot afford to discard them for such a useless reason. I have no cause to feel guilt here. I can't stand a person like him, and I'll only deal with him as much as is expedient, so...
[Once again, a thump as something is thrown against the wall]
[Public]
It seems I've finally experienced one of these 'event' days. I apologize to anyone I may have offended in the past few days with any forwardness-- I assure you, that sort of behavior is not the norm for me.
Still, I suppose one must take the bad with the good, hmm? I am pleased to have met those of you I have spoken to as a result of this strange event. And I believe I made the offer of a beach party. It's not ordinarily the sort of idea I would have, but perhaps I'll speak to Tamaki and see what we can do.
[Filtered to Franziska]
I also believe I made you the offer of dinner, Miss von Karma. While I certainly would not think less of you for declining, considering, I would not go back on the offer.
[Filtered to Tamaki]
...Ah
Unfortunately, I must admit that upon further reflection, Haruhi said no such thing to me. In fact, the effects of the personality switch must have caused me to misunderstand him, and now the mistake is quite clear to me. As such, I hope you can simply disregard what I said as beyond my control. At any rate, I would prefer to ignore everything that's happened the past several days.
Do you have the candidates for the Host Club yet?
[Filtered to Haruhi]
It's my hope that we can just ignore the past several days. Is that acceptable?