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The role of the third son is to ensure that all expectations are met while being careful never to outshine my two brothers; to skillfully handle the sympathy and sarcasm directed my way; to constantly maintain the stoic front of a hardworking and content third son.
Perhaps I haven't done poorly thus far. I've assumed a basic but useful position, made connections with Suoh and Houshakuji, and not neglected my studies nor my public appearance, aside from the unavoidable failings caused by the island.
I haven't, in a sense, let my father and his expectations of me down. Even if I believe there is much more that I could...but there wouldn't be any sense in striving for a goal that isn't within reach, and it isn't in my nature to do the work when it won't benefit me.
One thing doesn't make sense-- the Host Club. Surely my father would not approve of my participation in something so frivolous, third son or no?
It's more of the puzzle that I'm missing, why I would agree to be involved in something like that, and how it came to be.
Well. Grain of truth or not, I don't have any more time to waste in dreams. I'm not that person, even if perhaps it would be better if I were. We'll see what the puzzle has to say about me next.
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That was certainly an interesting one, Memento Eden. It would have been nice to have advance warning, of course, so that I might have got more work done in advance to prepare. My apologies to my employer; I will of course be making it up with overtime, although I suppose you may have known of my absence in advance, hmm?
[Filtered to Ouran Crew]
Let me say that I hope there aren't any lasting effects of all of this. As for myself, I found the extent to which I was troubled by the nightmare's effects fortuitously minimal.