Somehow

[addycaissa]

No matter how bad a situation is, there's always a way to make it worse. This is especially true when I'm involved in any way whatsoever, and even more so if emotions are involved. This one was completely my fault, I don't seek to shirk blame or anything. There are, unfortunately, two prejudices that no matter how hard I try to shake I just can't.

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[diamondafc]

On the smoking side of things, i cant be around people that smoke for more than about half an hour unless there not one of many chain smolers and dont stink of it constantly.

Im glad joanne gave up smoking as i tried to put up with it when first started seeing each other but i know if she didnt stop i wouldnt have stayed in the relationship no matter how much i loved her.

I even tell my own mum shes stinking and dont like her coming anywhere near me cos she smokes, apart from that shes ok.

Just something i cant stand and can only put up with it when drunk.

On the drugs side of things i cant comment too much as i went through my phases, but that one cocktail is absolutley stupid but suppose everyone knows theres a risk but still do it.

Only problem is too many people take shit and then blame dealers or someone else when there the only ones to blame if something happens. Took ending up in hospital for me to see how stupid i was when taking e's.

Sadly addy is all shit we need to put up with in life.

[addycaissa]

Yeah, unfortunately I know its a part of life I'm going to have to force myself to accept one way or the other. Its the fact that just so many of my friends do take things or smoke thats hard to deal with, I basically can't escape it when I'm with my friends, and I've spent so long by myself I can't handle it anymore! That's the problem with the Livingston job (which is my fall back if I don't find anything else before the end of May) - I'm myself all day, except for a couple of times seeing people, email and phone calls, plus there's the 3/4 hours a day travelling myself and unsociable hours

[_x13]

I know what you mean about the drug thing Addy, 100%. I think it's just because, like any normal person, you care about your friends - you want what's best for them & you definitely don't want anything horrible to happen to them.

I'm in a similar position, most of (not all, thankfully) my friends are partial to a few pills when they're out and/or a few lines of coke, and I can't stand it. I hate being around them when they're under the influence because they're not the people I know & love. It's not easy to talk sense into people though, I don't even try anymore. I know that if anything happens to any of them I'll regret that though :\

Wish I had some great advice to put in here but I don't, sadly. Just know that it isn't just you. No huge consolation, but it's the best I can do.

[addycaissa]

You know it's actually much more consolation than you think to know that someone else feels the same way! To say "all" my friends are like that is an exaggeration - hell you feel the same way I do so I can hardly say all on that basis alone! But it does feel like all, or certainly most, a lot of the time