Know-Thyself: Day Four
Again, you can find the questions here
If you could be a fictional character from a movie or a novel, who would you want to be? Why?
Honestly, I think I would choose Jaffe from "The Great and Secret Show". I could post a whole journal entry giving you the summary, but basically he finds the essence of evolution and keeps some in a bottle. But it goes haywire and he gets ridiculous superpowers. Mostly I like him because he's a self-driven dick that comes around in the end. But yeah, the evolution stuff takes your persona and turns you into some supernatural thing based on what makes you YOU. I just think it would be interesting to see what I come out as.
What are you really bad at?
Time management. That is definitely something I'm working on though.
Who would you like to forgive and forget?
An Aquarius always forgives but never forgets. I have a hard time forgiving myself, but I'm working on it.
Do you often hear your inner voice? What does it usually tell you?
All day, actually. It tells me things that keep me safe from trouble and helps me notice when people are being dishonest. It tells me when I need to back down in an argument but I must say I'm very good at ignoring that portion of it.
When was the last time you cried without anyone seeing you? And why?
I wish I could cry, I need it badly. I've been trying to cry for the past two weeks but I just can't get myself there. As soon as I feel a tear start to form I hear that "No" in my head and it stops. As for the last time I cried alone? I don't remember, probably right after Rich passed away.
What do you want people you meet for the first time to think about you?
I try to be nice to new people I meet, I always keep the Delphic Maxim "When you are a stranger, act like one" in my mind when venturing out. That said I'm not used to strangers being kind, so I'm normally suspicious of other people at first.
What’s your most striking physical attribute? Do you like it?
My legs, it's the inner Aquarius/Air in me. My nervous habit is rubbing my knees and thighs. I've always liked my legs, I try to be kind to them.
If you had the opportunity to go back in time and make a change, would you still want to have the same parents?
Yes. Everything that makes me who I am today comes from them, and believe it or not I'm actually starting to like myself.
If you could go back in time and change things, how would you alter the last ten years?
I wouldn't change anything. But I'd like to go into a simulator and see how other things would've panned out had I acted differently, just to fulfil my morbid sense of curiosity.
I want to see where I'd be now if I would've just told Joshua that I love him. Maybe he wouldn't be in California, or maybe I'd be there too. I'm curious to see how different I'd be had I never found Paganism/Druidry. If I would've been one of the cool kids in school I wouldn't be what I am now, I'm interested to see how Jock Anthony would be faring right about now. I wonder how different life would be if I would have said no to my first encounter with drugs. So much of this has shaped me that the thought of them not existing is like removing a main beam from a skyscraper.
If you could get rid of one of your responsibilities today, what would that be?
I feel like I don't have any responsibilities, but only because I like the ones I have. I don't work because I enjoy my job, both of them. One puts food on a table, and the other feeds my spiritual side. My responsibilities are who I am, although if someone wanted to say "Anthony you deserve a break, why don't you take it easy today" I certainly wouldn't mind.
If you could be a fictional character from a movie or a novel, who would you want to be? Why?
Honestly, I think I would choose Jaffe from "The Great and Secret Show". I could post a whole journal entry giving you the summary, but basically he finds the essence of evolution and keeps some in a bottle. But it goes haywire and he gets ridiculous superpowers. Mostly I like him because he's a self-driven dick that comes around in the end. But yeah, the evolution stuff takes your persona and turns you into some supernatural thing based on what makes you YOU. I just think it would be interesting to see what I come out as.
What are you really bad at?
Time management. That is definitely something I'm working on though.
Who would you like to forgive and forget?
An Aquarius always forgives but never forgets. I have a hard time forgiving myself, but I'm working on it.
Do you often hear your inner voice? What does it usually tell you?
All day, actually. It tells me things that keep me safe from trouble and helps me notice when people are being dishonest. It tells me when I need to back down in an argument but I must say I'm very good at ignoring that portion of it.
When was the last time you cried without anyone seeing you? And why?
I wish I could cry, I need it badly. I've been trying to cry for the past two weeks but I just can't get myself there. As soon as I feel a tear start to form I hear that "No" in my head and it stops. As for the last time I cried alone? I don't remember, probably right after Rich passed away.
What do you want people you meet for the first time to think about you?
I try to be nice to new people I meet, I always keep the Delphic Maxim "When you are a stranger, act like one" in my mind when venturing out. That said I'm not used to strangers being kind, so I'm normally suspicious of other people at first.
What’s your most striking physical attribute? Do you like it?
My legs, it's the inner Aquarius/Air in me. My nervous habit is rubbing my knees and thighs. I've always liked my legs, I try to be kind to them.
If you had the opportunity to go back in time and make a change, would you still want to have the same parents?
Yes. Everything that makes me who I am today comes from them, and believe it or not I'm actually starting to like myself.
If you could go back in time and change things, how would you alter the last ten years?
I wouldn't change anything. But I'd like to go into a simulator and see how other things would've panned out had I acted differently, just to fulfil my morbid sense of curiosity.
I want to see where I'd be now if I would've just told Joshua that I love him. Maybe he wouldn't be in California, or maybe I'd be there too. I'm curious to see how different I'd be had I never found Paganism/Druidry. If I would've been one of the cool kids in school I wouldn't be what I am now, I'm interested to see how Jock Anthony would be faring right about now. I wonder how different life would be if I would have said no to my first encounter with drugs. So much of this has shaped me that the thought of them not existing is like removing a main beam from a skyscraper.
If you could get rid of one of your responsibilities today, what would that be?
I feel like I don't have any responsibilities, but only because I like the ones I have. I don't work because I enjoy my job, both of them. One puts food on a table, and the other feeds my spiritual side. My responsibilities are who I am, although if someone wanted to say "Anthony you deserve a break, why don't you take it easy today" I certainly wouldn't mind.