so i thought i had it figured out, but clearly i don't.
it's just one of those things, i suppose.
sometimes we're just meant to stop and wonder.

i know that i've had many a thing on my mind lately, but one just seems to stick out. what is it with me and having the hardest time getting things accomplished? it's like i try to find the hardest possible situation for myself. sometimes i just feel like giving up on everything. it's pretty depressing. and sometimes i just feel like making ( Read more... )

time equals five forty in the morning. up before the sun. or just trying to keep up with the moon, whatever the story, i haven't slept tonight. i so desperately longed for the soothing comfort of consciousness drifting away from all of this stimulus, interactions, arguments, activities, stress. making my way through a world with no boundaries or ( Read more... )

what is it that i am missing?
i'm tired of all of this.

i had seventeen thousand things that i wanted to write down before i actually got to the text box and now i can't remember any of them ( Read more... )

if there was ever a timeline of when to contemplate, i can see where now would fit perfectly. thirty thousand ideas, memories, randomness are swimming helplessly along a river without an end. it's not that i don't want to focus, i just don't have the focus to start. so, now i am sitting here, listening to this external stimulus and fading out. ( Read more... )

is it so wrong to want a change?
8 months have been dull.
snazzy saturdays are in full swing.
i need more ink.
i need to leave this all behind.

so, i need to get out of this day to day type thing. i want to go do something fun and exciting. anyone want to do anything totally ridiculous next saturday(6/23)? i am off after a meeting in the morning. let me know!!!!!!!..... please?

i want to write a score, but i need something/ inspiration to write about. so, if anyone is reading this, give me some ideas...

at this point in time, i hate everything...
lame.