If you're going out to see her, why are we even trying?  Why are we even pretending everything isn't fucked up beyond repair?

Why are you putting me through this then saying you love me?

So...yeah...it's time to get through this, isn't it?

I found out that for over a month now not only has Sam been talking to Brianne (while swearing up and down she wasn't), but that she has been making plans to take a road trip out to see her.  On top of that, Robbie knew and was encouraging her (way to stab me in the back you asshole), as did Adam ( Read more... )

How can you lie next to me, so easily falling asleep, after all you've done?

Why am I the one up late, anxious about your trip out to see her?

Why do I feel bad that a nasty little part of me hopes you go out there, and she tells you the truth, and you realize you ruined our relationship for nothing?  Over that scheming whore you're so in love

Air conditioning is still broken.  >Sam came over after work for a bit.  We made waffles and french toast, and I was able to eat a little bit.  She was really...friendly.  Calm.  Like nothing had happened.  I mean, she apologized a lot, but otherwise it was pretty...normal.  Which is just fucked up, considering ( Read more... )

I'm not even sure why I'm bothering to write this.  I feel at this point the overwhelming amount of thoughts going through my head will never make it to my fingertips, to be writing, so all I'm grasping at are little, fleeting, unconnected thoughts.  Feelings.  Images.  Expectations.  Illusions ( Read more... )

Please Sam, keep your word and come over tonight ( Read more... )

Sam...please...just get it through your head that I love you.  Please please please.  I feel like I'm trying to pound it into you, and...

I just want you to love me again.  To have me be that one special thing.  I'm so in love with you.

I know I've made mistakes.  You haven't been perfect either.  Just...

Please make it so I'm not hurting for

You stupid idiot!

You fucking believed her.  you thought she'd change.  Ugh!  Could you be any stupidier?!

God, I'm so lost right now ( Read more... )

I tried to talk to Sam about everything last night ( Read more... )