I stopped talking to you for all the wrong reasons.
One of the primary reasons had to do with feelings I knew would lead nowhere. This is why I continue to keep distance. There are lots of things I don't understand about myself lately, ergo why I A) don't want to bring you into that crap, and B) why I stay at arm's length. There's nothing worse than old feelings flaring up again, especially if it's one-sided and/or doomed to go nowhere.
I was an ass. I do that sometimes, when I'm Feelin' Chicken. Sometimes it's just easier to run away.
To be honest, I miss you. A lot. But I'm terrified of what'll happen if I talk to you-- not like, superficially, but actually talk to you-- and you shut down the way things got toward the end. It did hurt, a lot, to lose contact with you-- especially the way we did.
But if you ever did want to talk, I know that we have people in common-- they have my basic contact information, if you don't. And I really would love to hear from you. But take it at your own pace and in your own time. I'll be here, regardless.
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One of the primary reasons had to do with feelings I knew would lead nowhere. This is why I continue to keep distance. There are lots of things I don't understand about myself lately, ergo why I A) don't want to bring you into that crap, and B) why I stay at arm's length. There's nothing worse than old feelings flaring up again, especially if it's one-sided and/or doomed to go nowhere.
I was an ass. I do that sometimes, when I'm Feelin' Chicken. Sometimes it's just easier to run away.
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To be honest, I miss you. A lot. But I'm terrified of what'll happen if I talk to you-- not like, superficially, but actually talk to you-- and you shut down the way things got toward the end. It did hurt, a lot, to lose contact with you-- especially the way we did.
But if you ever did want to talk, I know that we have people in common-- they have my basic contact information, if you don't. And I really would love to hear from you. But take it at your own pace and in your own time. I'll be here, regardless.
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