I missed school today. I think I deserved it one hundred percent. I was in a car wreck last night and sat on a grassy hill for 2 hours and then came home sneezing and itching and histamines going wild and had to take a tavist and it knocked me the fuck OUT. I couldn't get up this morning at all. I said 'This is so stupid' and turned off my alarm, ( Read more... )

oh bloody mary. now im home alone AGAIN because people are going to airports and driving home and being in meetings and i am not one of those persons. for me, school got out at like 10.30 this morning. i was planning on just walking home and going back to bed, but Amythyst ruined my plans. actually, we went to eat lunch and we talked about hot ( Read more... )

i've counted up to 10. now im thinking about crashing or something. i've had a lot of ice cream and some watermelon, also sausage biscuits and leftover alfredo. im starting to eat normally, and more regularly, hooray. rusted root reminds me of middle school when marie drove Claire and I to school every morning. we listened to a tape Thomas made her ( Read more... )

i suddenly feel very disoriented and sick, but i have been sitting down for at least 10 minutes. and a headache starts. my feet go numb, too. where's my light? where's my drug? i had a path, and it was bulldozed over ( Read more... )

In light of recent events, i may not be at school this week. i may not speak to you, and i may speak to others more often. give me space and time and also give thanks to God. Worry for me, keep me safe. Look after me and others, take long walks. and give thanks to God ( Read more... )

listen to me. i am done with sordid chemicals and beating up walls. because im not one ( Read more... )

im wearing my daddy's cowboy hat. i ate breakfast today. 2 biscuits an orange and ceral. with milk. i dont know why but i wanted to eat diversely? is that a word? now it is. last night i was impervious to my antidepressants. i feel asleep with my forehead furrowed, i know i did. and for what reason? because such a large number of people think they ( Read more... )

in the mornings, i think twice about getting up. i don't think i've done any of my home work this week. i dont even think about doing it. it's really hard to stay at school. it's hard to interact with a lot of the people. it's hard to trancend the boundry of aquantace to friend. i'd like to say i have good friends in highschool, but i think twice ( Read more... )

post you fucktards! that's what having a livejournal is all about! if i didn't want your feed back i would turn off posting ability! wait, this isn't that important to me at all. alright, im rational now ( Read more... )