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[red_qat]

I hate myself so much. Every piece of unhappiness and bad luck that's come the past couple weeks, I've brought on myself. I don't know what I want, I don't know where my life is going, and I've pushed so many people away I have no one left to truly lean on. I've been leading multiple people on, I'm scared of intimacy, any relationship I actually

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[cosmicwonder]

You need help asap. Please call a suicide helpline.

[cosmicwonder]

I'm sorry that my message yesterday was so curt, but I was feeling rather ill to the point that I couldn't write a longer comment, but I felt that I should at least tell you to get help

[red_qat]

Thank you for your words....my own feelings are still foreign to me as ever

[blacksofa]

" I'm a prisoner of my own mind and I trap myself constantly"

Meditation works wonders for this...for everything you've just described. It will allow you to break the cycle and I strongly suggest you practice it