This is jumbled, I am sorry, bear with me!

[majesticmedusa]

21, Female

I have a bit of a life in general problem right now. This problem has actually been occurring since I was about 11, and I just am not sure what kinds of things I should do to fix it. My problem is self-imposed, nobody is at fault but me. I suppose that is the most difficult thing about it.

I have almost no motivation to make progress in

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[hoodwink]

Hi

[majesticmedusa]

I do plan to go to my doctor soon, as I have had some health issues lately as it is. I will try to talk to her about some of this stuff. I don't know if what I am dealing with is depression, or just being severely unhealthy, or just needing to grow up. It isn't as though I cry all the time, or want to be dead. I do have a thirst to do things, its just that when I actually try them...they go nowhere. You are right though, my doctor needs to help me assess some of this. Internet people are not professionals, although they have proved a few times to give me a good kick in the right direction. Thanks for your input :)

[hoodwink]

Depression isn't just about tears or thoughts of suicide. It can manifest in multiple ways.

Good Luck.

[estoid]

HOOOOOLY CRAP, YOU ARE ME! In so many ways, from doing well in school as a kid, to losing motivation as the years went by, to screwing up post-secondary and not being able to get funding (although mine comes in the form of not paying my student loans so I'm screwed when it comes to going back to school... ever), to not liking your job much and calling in sick, and all the way down to a roommate leaving you with the lease and having to put expenses on your credit card

[majesticmedusa]

Thanks for the input :). I guess as far as school and things that required self-motivation goes, I have had it easy. I was a pretty smart kid, and didn't worry about studying, even in the gifted classes. I still got straight A's. However, when it came to things around the house/family life, my parents really made me work hard. They were also very strict about manners and house rules. So I dunno if I fall into the category of having it easy or hard, I guess it depends. I will try to take some of that stuff into account about just getting out and stuff. I am also constantly worried about money, so I am sure that will be fixed once I am back at my parents, paying off my credit card, instead of insane amounts of rent like here at my apartment

[shana_tc]

I wholeheartedly agree with the poster above. I was just like you also. I'm better but I relapse. I know I suffered from untreated depression and may still. I know it sounds crazy and I have no religious or medical reason not to, but I don't believe in taking meds for myself. I believe my depression is more situational, I just think I'm more prone than others to slip into when things aren't going right

[shana_tc]

for a concert, weekend trips to DC, Baltimore and just anywhere I could go. Until I deployed to Iraq and things really changed. I'd tell you more, but it really is too long of a story. In a nutshell, my advice would be to take a look around your life and figure out what may be holding you back, what may be bringing you down. I was too blind to see that my marriage, my job, my family were causing my depression, I was too blind to even see I was depressed. Your life, your outlook might improve if you take charge of your life.