haha and email..... 1 day= eternity here sooo i fi dont reply in a fashionably reasonable amount of time lol, then PLEASE email me again. yeah..... it has been a really tough period for me and the fact that i just got my period for real, ..... definitely has not helped
and no it says focus....well almost. i have the f and the o but i have to redo the c u s ....
bah. i am not interested in seriously hurting myself. it's an intense activity that requires all of my attention and it reminds me to keep on track
oooo and SERIOUSLY. i was not trying to be vague at all. my mind was in a fog and i couldn't grasp anything to pull myself out. all i could focus on was the feeling and i couldn't do more than acknowledge it. dead serious dead serious dead serious
i'm kind of joking about it now, but at the time it was starting to scare me. i was feeling the beginnings of an inclination to be more more destructive. I wish i could be talking to you face to face so i could convey my sincerity in this. Jamie. It was terrible. i broke down crying in the middle of calculus yesterday and i barely made it outside before i started sobbing hysterically. it's so frustratingly stupid.
evil evil woman CALL ME!!!! i don't check my email very often (in fact, i often avoid it.... to many icky responsibilities are found within emails...) you're probably back in gainesville by now.. grr well, i'll be coming to visit you soon enough. are you going to be down for halloween? the 28th that is... my school is having a really big party, so it'd be cool if you came. jessiebear will be there (even if she doesn't know it yet...lol) anyhoo call me sometime ....if only to make sure i haven't hanged myself yet lol
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dumb joke.
you never did email me back.
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and email..... 1 day= eternity here sooo i fi dont reply in a fashionably reasonable amount of time lol, then PLEASE email me again.
yeah..... it has been a really tough period for me and the fact that i just got my period for real, ..... definitely has not helped
and no it says focus....well almost. i have the f and the o but i have to redo the c u s ....
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What was the saving grace? What could it have been? What would have made it less eh?
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On a more serious note, where are you carving, how much blood is there, and how much does it hurt? And why, of course...
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oooo and SERIOUSLY. i was not trying to be vague at all. my mind was in a fog and i couldn't grasp anything to pull myself out. all i could focus on was the feeling and i couldn't do more than acknowledge it.
dead serious
dead serious
dead serious
i'm kind of joking about it now, but at the time it was starting to scare me. i was feeling the beginnings of an inclination to be more more destructive. I wish i could be talking to you face to face so i could convey my sincerity in this. Jamie. It was terrible. i broke down crying in the middle of calculus yesterday and i barely made it outside before i started sobbing hysterically.
it's so frustratingly stupid.
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CALL ME!!!!
i don't check my email very often (in fact, i often avoid it.... to many icky responsibilities are found within emails...)
you're probably back in gainesville by now..
grr
well, i'll be coming to visit you soon enough. are you going to be down for halloween? the 28th that is...
my school is having a really big party, so it'd be cool if you came. jessiebear will be there (even if she doesn't know it yet...lol)
anyhoo
call me sometime
....if only to make sure i haven't hanged myself yet lol
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