TM Response - Self-Doubt
Talk about a time you overcame serious self-doubt
The only thing Aelita could think as she propelled her scooter down the sewer tunnels on the way to the factory was that being human was more difficult than she thought it would be.
First there had been Sissi's practical joke, sending her to the boy's showers and getting her into trouble with Jim during her second day at Kadic. The pink-haired girl cursed herself for being so naive; the others had warned her about the principal's daughter, Ulrich especially. Even hours after the incident merely thinking about it made Aelita's face burn in humiliation.
And then there was lunch period. There were so many different foods to choose from; Aelita wanted to try them all but didn't want to be too greedy. But the lunch lady had told her to move along before she had come to a decision, and the boy behind Aelita had snapped at her for holding up the line. She wound up running out of the cafeteria without getting any lunch, only to come face to face with Sissi again and be reminded of what had happened that morning.
But the worst part was that her friends had abandoned her, thrown her to the wolves to use an old saying she had come across while surfing the Internet. Yumi was off in class while Ulrich and Odd were with Jeremie in the school archives, searching for information about the mysterious Franz Hopper who owned the Hermitage where Aelita had experienced those visions. She felt hurt, as well as sad and angry - angry at her friends, her so-called classmates and at herself.
"Maybe I don't have what it takes to be a human," Aelita thought to herself as she set the timer on the virtualization program. "At least on Lyoko I know what to expect with XANA. Perhaps Jeremie and the others are better off without me here."
It would be much later, after our discovery of the fifth sector and our first encounter with XANA's memory-stealing Skipizoa, that I began to feel better. I felt rather silly reacting the way I did, but Yumi assured me that it was perfectly understandable. After all, I'd just had my very first "bad day", a common occurance for every human. The others apologized for leaving me, even if they'd had my best interests at heart (apparently being caught in the school archives would have gotten all three boys into serious trouble).
Now that I've been in the real world longer, I'm handling things much better. I'm just a student at Kadic rather than "the new girl", so my classmates are used to me and don't pay me very much attention (even if my nightmares do have a tendency to wake my floormates at night). Sissi's still somewhat of an annoyance, but like Jeremie and the others I've learned to pretty much tune her out.
But as difficult as being a human may be, I don't want to go back to living on Lyoko anymore.
The only thing Aelita could think as she propelled her scooter down the sewer tunnels on the way to the factory was that being human was more difficult than she thought it would be.
First there had been Sissi's practical joke, sending her to the boy's showers and getting her into trouble with Jim during her second day at Kadic. The pink-haired girl cursed herself for being so naive; the others had warned her about the principal's daughter, Ulrich especially. Even hours after the incident merely thinking about it made Aelita's face burn in humiliation.
And then there was lunch period. There were so many different foods to choose from; Aelita wanted to try them all but didn't want to be too greedy. But the lunch lady had told her to move along before she had come to a decision, and the boy behind Aelita had snapped at her for holding up the line. She wound up running out of the cafeteria without getting any lunch, only to come face to face with Sissi again and be reminded of what had happened that morning.
But the worst part was that her friends had abandoned her, thrown her to the wolves to use an old saying she had come across while surfing the Internet. Yumi was off in class while Ulrich and Odd were with Jeremie in the school archives, searching for information about the mysterious Franz Hopper who owned the Hermitage where Aelita had experienced those visions. She felt hurt, as well as sad and angry - angry at her friends, her so-called classmates and at herself.
"Maybe I don't have what it takes to be a human," Aelita thought to herself as she set the timer on the virtualization program. "At least on Lyoko I know what to expect with XANA. Perhaps Jeremie and the others are better off without me here."
It would be much later, after our discovery of the fifth sector and our first encounter with XANA's memory-stealing Skipizoa, that I began to feel better. I felt rather silly reacting the way I did, but Yumi assured me that it was perfectly understandable. After all, I'd just had my very first "bad day", a common occurance for every human. The others apologized for leaving me, even if they'd had my best interests at heart (apparently being caught in the school archives would have gotten all three boys into serious trouble).
Now that I've been in the real world longer, I'm handling things much better. I'm just a student at Kadic rather than "the new girl", so my classmates are used to me and don't pay me very much attention (even if my nightmares do have a tendency to wake my floormates at night). Sissi's still somewhat of an annoyance, but like Jeremie and the others I've learned to pretty much tune her out.
But as difficult as being a human may be, I don't want to go back to living on Lyoko anymore.