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Why am I so retarded?
I bought this table from Ikea I have been wanting since the last catalogue came out, what, 4 months ago? And so tonight I finally tried to mount it onto the wall, and what happens? Ashley's retarded brain didn't think about the fact that the stupid faux wall is completely drywall. The table stood up for a bit and then as I rested my arms on it it came crashing onto my legs. I am so stupid. I should have realzed that about that wall.
But now I am stuck with a table that I can't put up and thus cannot use, nor can it be returned. I'm down $20 and still don't have a dining room table.
Along those lines, Sean and I fought over this. He asked me why I would spend money on a table, and I thought it would be obvious. I am sorry I don't like eating dinner in my bed. I am not a bachelor. I don't want to live like one. I feel as if he doesn't realize there needs to be compromises for BOTH of us. I have not lived on my own, not really, I have not needed to buy essential things like couches or tables. But now, I do. I need a table to eat dinner on. Thats that. I am done with my compromises.
Sometimes I wonder why we moved in with eachother. I love him with all my heart, but sometimes I feel it was too soon. I want to live on my own. But fat chance of that. I hardly make enough to share a space. I hate having to work while in school. Now I have work M-W-F, School T-Th and then for the next few months Faire on the weekends. I have NO time. I don't get out of school unitl 6 and usually don't get out of work until four. And without a car it is useless to try and get anything done in the little time I have. I really need to go to a chiropractor. My lawyer just sent me a letter saying he hasn't heard form me in 6 months. damnit. I have no time. And the school clinic obviously wont take my insurance. I hate this.
And this god damned but awesome costume is taking much longer than I planned. It is only the second time I have made a corset. I am way behind. But yet I have no time. I want to do homework, but I have the dress to do. I want to do the dress, but I have homework. I need time. Time. Thats all. Is that too much to ask.
And on another subject. What about the damned ATA/Landlord thing we are going through. Sean keeps talking about all this money we need to save, but god damnit it I had a thousand dollars saved and we spent it to get legal help from against our landlord. But have we pursued this? Of course not. I have too much on my plate right now. I don't want to have to remember to keep calling them too!
Things I need to do TOMORROW:
-Get Gretchen's Bridal Shower gift
-Finnish up Nissa's corset
-Sew the mock up for her bodice
-call her and let her know it's done
-work on mom's sleeves
Costumes for faire
-Nissa's corset
-Nissa's gown
-Mommy's sleeves
-Meghan's entire dress
-Kalee's Cloak
-Bob's pants
-My Coat
God damnit. No matter how early i start, I ALWAYS get stressed out and fall behind.
I am retarded. I really hate myself sometimes.
I bought this table from Ikea I have been wanting since the last catalogue came out, what, 4 months ago? And so tonight I finally tried to mount it onto the wall, and what happens? Ashley's retarded brain didn't think about the fact that the stupid faux wall is completely drywall. The table stood up for a bit and then as I rested my arms on it it came crashing onto my legs. I am so stupid. I should have realzed that about that wall.
But now I am stuck with a table that I can't put up and thus cannot use, nor can it be returned. I'm down $20 and still don't have a dining room table.
Along those lines, Sean and I fought over this. He asked me why I would spend money on a table, and I thought it would be obvious. I am sorry I don't like eating dinner in my bed. I am not a bachelor. I don't want to live like one. I feel as if he doesn't realize there needs to be compromises for BOTH of us. I have not lived on my own, not really, I have not needed to buy essential things like couches or tables. But now, I do. I need a table to eat dinner on. Thats that. I am done with my compromises.
Sometimes I wonder why we moved in with eachother. I love him with all my heart, but sometimes I feel it was too soon. I want to live on my own. But fat chance of that. I hardly make enough to share a space. I hate having to work while in school. Now I have work M-W-F, School T-Th and then for the next few months Faire on the weekends. I have NO time. I don't get out of school unitl 6 and usually don't get out of work until four. And without a car it is useless to try and get anything done in the little time I have. I really need to go to a chiropractor. My lawyer just sent me a letter saying he hasn't heard form me in 6 months. damnit. I have no time. And the school clinic obviously wont take my insurance. I hate this.
And this god damned but awesome costume is taking much longer than I planned. It is only the second time I have made a corset. I am way behind. But yet I have no time. I want to do homework, but I have the dress to do. I want to do the dress, but I have homework. I need time. Time. Thats all. Is that too much to ask.
And on another subject. What about the damned ATA/Landlord thing we are going through. Sean keeps talking about all this money we need to save, but god damnit it I had a thousand dollars saved and we spent it to get legal help from against our landlord. But have we pursued this? Of course not. I have too much on my plate right now. I don't want to have to remember to keep calling them too!
Things I need to do TOMORROW:
-Get Gretchen's Bridal Shower gift
-Finnish up Nissa's corset
-Sew the mock up for her bodice
-call her and let her know it's done
-work on mom's sleeves
Costumes for faire
-Nissa's corset
-Nissa's gown
-Mommy's sleeves
-Meghan's entire dress
-Kalee's Cloak
-Bob's pants
-My Coat
God damnit. No matter how early i start, I ALWAYS get stressed out and fall behind.
I am retarded. I really hate myself sometimes.