I just wrote a really long letter that I will most likely never give to the person I wrote it for. I'm almost tempted now to burn it, because having it in my possession makes me feel sad. It's a sad letter, but maybe necessary. I hate feeling like this, the uncertainty fucks with my mind like nothing else. A lot of the time, I feel like I'm going ( Read more... )

How do you fix something when you don't have the slightest clue as to what's actually wrong with it? Or, more importantly, how can you be completely sure that there is something wrong to begin with ( Read more... )

Well, there's this other boy too. I met him back in 2005 when we worked together at Borders, and then ran into him a few weeks ago while I was at the mall, killing time while waiting for my salon appointment. I hadn't seen him for over a year, but I remember he was the shy, cute boy back then, who was also in a band. I worked in the cafe and ( Read more... )

Any and all indifference I may feel toward him always becomes nonexistent once he has his arms around me. Every single time. He's leaving again soon, this was just a quick visit, and I honestly wish I could've just missed seeing him altogether. There's something about the way he looks at me, I don't know. I haven't seen or talked to him since that ( Read more... )

Imma get my hurr cut today, I have an appointment at 3:30. It's at that awkward length, and I want a couple inches off. I just really need to make known what I WANT and what I DO NOT WANT --- I don't want to end up looking like the Little Dutch Boy. It has happened, to myself and people I've known. Bobs can be tricky lil bastards ( Read more... )

We went to see PotC 3: At World's End last night, and oh, it was so incredibly confusing. And LONG. Besides the two hundred different plotlines going on, what was up with the Will/Elizabeth thing towards the end? Didn't they spend most of this movie and last movie pretty much not talking and kinda not liking one another too much? What the hell? ( Read more... )

I hate making doctor's appointments, because the office I usually go to is impossible to get ahold of, much like a bad boyfriend, and there's a lot of nervous waiting to see if they'll actually return my call, and if a few days goes by with no answer should I call again? Leave another message for them to get back to me? But oh my god maybe that's ( Read more... )

Spider-Man 3 was really depressing. Goddamn, I say, goddamn depressing! What the hell was THAT about? Still, I liked it. Kirsten Dunst makes me angry though, she's on my list of celebrities I'd like to stuff into a rocket and send into space forever. Yikes, she's scary looking sometimes.

My friend/co-worker keeps telling me "Hey you should go talk to Pat..." I do not want to talk to Pat. Who? Let me refresh your memory. Apparently she had been at Borders a couple weeks ago and talked to him, about me, though specifically what about me, I do not know, but now she's on some campaign to bring us back together and seriously, it would ( Read more... )

All my favorite people move away, because I guess Penn is just too lame for their level of awesomeness. Adam is the latest to jump ship, he's moving to St Louis on Tuesday. His brother and sister are both still here, so maybe he'll come back eventually. But still, I've known Adam for four years, beginning with when we briefly worked together & he ( Read more... )