Comments | aeval4: I thought my ears had decieved me

aeval4

I thought my ears had decieved me

Mar 07, 2005 04:52

I thought Chris had to be lying to me when she said that Terry gave Jen all his Dnd Books. But surely it must be true. And the last gaming master is gone. And life seems so...bad. First off, I cant help but be angry. I heard they still have gaming during the week. Though terry told me that he needed time alone. I know that Jim wont even concider ( Read more... )

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*grrs* q_shadowalker March 7 2005, 10:24:44 UTC

Ok, yes Dad gave me his D&D books. Secondly, if you must know, Chrissy and I have been considering running our own Friday game so chill! Grant it, it probably won't be for a month or so, most likely summer, so we can work on it and give Dad time so he doesn't feel like we're just writing him off. No offense, but right now I'm a tad more concerned about helping my dad through this than gaming ( ... )

aeval4 March 7 2005, 12:22:26 UTC

I am not blaming you or your dad for what is going on. I just write down things that go through my head this is MY journal, a place that i can put up all my worries on. Some may be insane. But Im allowed to write how i feel here. IF i dont write things down i will worry over them consiently. I DO still keep in touch with your dad. Actually he wrote to me today, and it seems that he isnt ready for anyone to visit him still. At least he hasnt said that we could. Which i am going to honor his wishes. If you dont think i am worried about him, you are sadly mistaken. And I take total offence at that. I tried getting Rhett to visit him. And it just pisses me off that you think that I dont care. I just write down here how things are affecting me. ITS MY JOURNAL ( ... )

q_shadowalker March 7 2005, 15:09:39 UTC

I'm sorry that I blew up at you...I didn't mean to. I know it's your journal and I'm not going to try and tell you what to write in it. I'm just so upset over the whole situation that I just don't know what to do anymore. I never thought the day would come where my dad would just stop. So I'm sorry if I wig out I'm just a bit on edge. Go ahead write about whatever you want...bitch all you want...complain all you feel you need to. I'm not going to say anything about it because you deserve to be as upset as the rest of us. I won't even reply to your entries pertaining to anything about this subject matter. I'll just get upset and then you'll get upset and then I'll get even more upset and it will just go on as a vicious circle till we aren't friends anymore and that I do not want!

aeval4 March 11 2005, 05:15:38 UTC

I dont want us to stop being friends eaither. I dont want you to stop replying to my journal. actually I only use this when i need people to set me straight, and know there are others out there to help me out with my insanity. Right now, taking time and thinking .I know why i am so angry. Its because I have always let people get me down. I have always been like that even as a kid. And what is bothering me the most is that I know that people wont stay in touch. I dont feel like i have just lost game. I KNOW that I have lost my gaming family. And it hurts more than anything. We have all been together for so long,and have gone through so much together. And it hurts. When I was a teenager. I was the one who always got people together to do things. I was always the instigator. And after a while...It felt like...why should i do this. Why should I make plans for these people to get together, when when its all said and done. And I no longer have that role. They all disappear, and dont care weither or not to get together after all. ( ... )

aeval4 March 13 2005, 16:07:50 UTC

I look back on this and seem to be including you in the "people who dont care" and that wasnt my intention. Just so you know.