My wonderful trip to Kansas
So last Friday, i decided to take some leave. I really needed to get away from Abilene. It was beginning to really get to me even though i had been to VA for a week... but since that was for business... it doesnt count.
Fair Warning... this involves a female and it dives into why the things they do blow my mind.
Anyhow... the first off again, im sorry... but you were warned.
A dear friend of mine from high school decided to introduce me to a friend of hers. Both her and i had similar situations though, mine was from the past and hers was more recent. Tara (the friend of mine) figured if anyone could help her with what she was going through it would be me. So i talked to her... and quickly became somewhat interested in getting to know her more and gaining an interest in her. I later found out... she started dating someone. I infomed her that he was a lucky man, which she didnt understand. I wanted a chance to make her happy and since someone else was given that chance.. he was lucky. She did tell me she still wanted me to come up to visit, and to meet me. That confused me, and so i sought female intuition from various sources to see what the 'general consensus' was. It was all the same. There had to be some interest if she still wanted me to come up.
So... I did.
Boy i couldnt have been further from the truth. She was completely hooked on her 'new guy'. They were damn near joined at the hip. She invited me to dinner, just her and I, and so i thought it would be my time to explain how i felt. Nope. Wrong again. I began hearing one side from Tara, and the other side i saw from her. To me... she doesnt know what she wants. She is settling for anyone who will give her attention. I think he has been stringing her along just by some of the things i have overheard and been told. So the 4 days i was up there, this continued. Then last night... she invited me out to dinner again, but w/ boyfriend in tow. Now, why would a woman invite a man to dinner w/ her boyfriend knowing the other guy has feelings? Well... that is because she was (so she says) oblivious to his feelings. Inappropriate comments were made, along with unnecessary 'quesions'
Today, before i left, she pulls me aside and tries to apologize to me. Turns out 'she didnt know how i felt' which i find damn hard to believe because i know what she was told. My behavior was also as such. As of now, she knows how i feel, what i was thinking, and what impression i was giving. She played the i didnt know card, the helpless individual card. With all i heard, i really find it hard to believe that she TRULY didnt have a clue.
Anyhow.. whats done is done. She obviously doesnt want to be with me so im not going to fight it any more. I wanted to make her happy. I wanted to make her feel wanted. She doesnt want that from me.
I could seriously go on and on about this.. but im not going to. I am going tos ave those who are reading froma massive pile of frustration and iritation.
While driving back to OKC, i drove right into a hail storm and tornado warning. i had to hurry to Jen's cuz i knew that she wasnt handling things well. But i made it safe and sound. I dont have to worry about or deal with the KS crap... Who knows..
Fair Warning... this involves a female and it dives into why the things they do blow my mind.
Anyhow... the first off again, im sorry... but you were warned.
A dear friend of mine from high school decided to introduce me to a friend of hers. Both her and i had similar situations though, mine was from the past and hers was more recent. Tara (the friend of mine) figured if anyone could help her with what she was going through it would be me. So i talked to her... and quickly became somewhat interested in getting to know her more and gaining an interest in her. I later found out... she started dating someone. I infomed her that he was a lucky man, which she didnt understand. I wanted a chance to make her happy and since someone else was given that chance.. he was lucky. She did tell me she still wanted me to come up to visit, and to meet me. That confused me, and so i sought female intuition from various sources to see what the 'general consensus' was. It was all the same. There had to be some interest if she still wanted me to come up.
So... I did.
Boy i couldnt have been further from the truth. She was completely hooked on her 'new guy'. They were damn near joined at the hip. She invited me to dinner, just her and I, and so i thought it would be my time to explain how i felt. Nope. Wrong again. I began hearing one side from Tara, and the other side i saw from her. To me... she doesnt know what she wants. She is settling for anyone who will give her attention. I think he has been stringing her along just by some of the things i have overheard and been told. So the 4 days i was up there, this continued. Then last night... she invited me out to dinner again, but w/ boyfriend in tow. Now, why would a woman invite a man to dinner w/ her boyfriend knowing the other guy has feelings? Well... that is because she was (so she says) oblivious to his feelings. Inappropriate comments were made, along with unnecessary 'quesions'
Today, before i left, she pulls me aside and tries to apologize to me. Turns out 'she didnt know how i felt' which i find damn hard to believe because i know what she was told. My behavior was also as such. As of now, she knows how i feel, what i was thinking, and what impression i was giving. She played the i didnt know card, the helpless individual card. With all i heard, i really find it hard to believe that she TRULY didnt have a clue.
Anyhow.. whats done is done. She obviously doesnt want to be with me so im not going to fight it any more. I wanted to make her happy. I wanted to make her feel wanted. She doesnt want that from me.
I could seriously go on and on about this.. but im not going to. I am going tos ave those who are reading froma massive pile of frustration and iritation.
While driving back to OKC, i drove right into a hail storm and tornado warning. i had to hurry to Jen's cuz i knew that she wasnt handling things well. But i made it safe and sound. I dont have to worry about or deal with the KS crap... Who knows..