so today consisted of me going to school just sit in a desk and do busy work. i hate that. then after school i stayed after for half choir and to run through stuff for all shore. i'm not going to make it in, but at least it's something to keep me busy for the time being. now my throat hurts.

my mom just told me i was like a giant dare poster. it ( Read more... )

so yesterday was kind of a blur. all i know is it involved me in school being upset over stupid things that don't and probably never will matter. the day then  ended with me at fairview by myself somewhere between 11:30 at night and 1:30 in the morning with a lot of music and books and swings. i also lied down on the blacktop and sang the format ( Read more... )

so last night was miss eleni's party. fun. i literally sat in the same chair for 4 hours and let people come and talk to me. i had good conversation through the entirety of the night. nice.

after everybody left eleni and i watched the new degrassi because we are addicts.

then this morning we played pretty pretty princess. i won. duh.

i've come to the realization that i don't leave a lasting impression on anybody. and i hate that i'm so incredibly forgettable.

also, lately, i've been completely open about how mean i actually am. and to be completely honest, i love it. and that's probably bad. but i honestly do not care. at all.

i just want to be somebodys favorite.

so yeah, summer's over. and i'm incredibly upset about it.   this summer was definitely the best so far. amazing people & way too much red bank & parties & photoshoots with absolutely adorable boys haha        &&&   i definitely wasn't ready for it to end. so yeah.

i want this year to be good.
i'm excited for chorus because i'm a dork like that.
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( ehh. schedule. )

( so basically i'm coming horribly close to anger.. )

( eleni and i have spent unnatural amounts of time together this summer. we're cool. )

so eleni and i went to red bank tonight, but got sent home and could have very easily gotten arrested. cool? no.

I don't want to be in long island. at all.