The Seventh Night of Tantra, Chapter 18
Chapter 18
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Tantric mistress said: The task becomes harder with the fourth night of tantra. If the goal would be easily attainable, its value would be small. Only by controlling the pleasure you are able to multiply it. Multiplying the pleasure and its control characterize every step on the path to perfect control of life and universe.
That night when they went back to Pune, to their little flat from the Palm leaves library, Luke was quiet, and Reid was quiet, too, but for different reasons.
Luke was quiet because he knew that everything in the manuscript was perfectly accurate and true. The reading was divided into the past, present and future stages of his life, and the Hindu monk had spoken about Luke´s family and relationship with Reid with such a close familiarity, that Luke had goose bumps and wondered if this guy was peeking through a key hole into his whole life.
For the part that consisted of the past years, it seemed that the monk saw his life with his inner sight as if he were downloading information from some invisible space Luke could not see. As he was speaking, Luke had all the visions from his life in front of his eyes, emerging from his memory like runaway horses that are not held by anything and cannot be stopped. All the details from everything that happened in his life, from the incidents that had lead to his kidney transplantation, how he had realized he was gay, how he had fought with Damian, and how everything that had happened with Noah lead him to Reid was described with beautiful metaphorical delicacy - Luke intuitively undertood. But the only thing he remembered was “a blind man bringing the light in his life”. Luke smiled for he was sure Reid was light of his life.
During the reading of the presence, what the old man was describing was about exactly what he felt toward Reid and that the principal experiences they have been through these days are key in development of both of their personalities and will help them in later periods of their life. “This man is teaching you just by being next to you, with him you are coming back to your true self that has been sleeping for many years. You still have some issues to solve in the present but you are blooming and taking back what is yours.” Reid bowed his head and made his subtlest smile with his heart that was not visible to most but Luke felt it and took his hand.
One thing that came together with what he saw in his vision, and that rang in his head as if speaking to him through ages and countless lives, was when the monk called them Ancient lovers. Luke would never forget this scripture in his vison he had had with Reid. Later, when Reid left for his future to be read, the monk said that Reid would propose to him very soon, and that a woman who was their guide on the journey must be called one last time to finish the karmic task that she owed them. Luke was even afraid to speak it from his lips aloud lest the love fly away from him. And he knew he must call Christine.
“Your names will do big good to humankind. With your partner, you will practice tantra and reach master skills that will open doors to higher states of consciousness. At the same time, you will have big family that will give you deeper fulfillment than anything else. Your soul will leave this body naturally and peacefully in the age of 101 with your partner by your side, who will guide you days after your body will be officially dead and who will leave this life shortly after you, content and calm, in a state of Samadhi that not many of the westerners are able to reach.”
Luke remembered he had chuckled here, but he totally knew it was realistic as he imagined how Reid was able to focus in his meditations, and of course even his death had to be something special, dying in a yogi lotus sitting pose, choosing his moment to leave, because he was brilliant neurosurgeon who understood the brain and he wasn’t afraid to experiment with it. Strange, when at this moment he was afraid to hear Luke´s future, so instead he was outside trying to explain to the little girl who played with the dirt and pieces of paper on the road that it is really not a good thing to put her hands in her mouth. Luke was again surprised how this “clear as a matter of fact” picture in his mind came to him, but his mind was busy with other thoughts.
Despite the fact that all the information was overwhelming and brought some sad memories, the present state of things made Luke calm and silently happy. Here and now with Reid, he had more strength reaching deeper into his heart through their adventures of the past few weeks than he ever had into his painful past.
He truly felt connected and whole, as if all the bad things and every step in life he made lead him to this moment, when everything made sense. In this moment he could easily believe those who claimed that everything in your life is planned and prepared, that the universe has one big scheme and cycle in which all the things that exist run in phases and everything repeats itself. Yes, he felt strangely happy and silent inside and he looked forward to their next night of tantra because he wanted to be one with Reid again, he wanted to connect more than just physically.
In contrast, Reid´s silence was coming from pain. He stayed and heard the first part of the reading, hearing again from different mouth all at once all the bad stuff that had befallen Luke, and he wished he had met him earlier so he could have protected him from all the bullshit he went through. He realized how much he cared, how much he was involved in this relationship and how much he was afraid that somebody or some higher power would take it from him. And he did not want to lose it. He did not want to lose Luke. He did not want to lose his soft, golden-haired, loving man because now, after everything they had gone through together in those few weeks, he believed Luke was his spiritual partner, his twin-ray with matching frequency in life and in love. He knew that the fifth night of tantra tonight would help him to get rid of these painful feelings and he really looked forward to it, because they would be alone, Luke would be safe with him, and Reid would give him all his love, of which he was so deserving.
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They both knew that this fifth lecture would not be easy, since the book was guiding them that each gives the other the pleasure by physically touching each other, something they were not allowed to do in all the previous sessions, having only to watch and imagine, tools strong enough for both to burst with powerfull sexual energy. At the same time, it felt that their energies were getting more in tune with one another and that this night had some different ingredients added into the air.
After their bathing ritual, they laid next to each other on the large spacious and soft carpet full of pillows. Both started to perform the ritual of perception at the same time, imagining the other was doing to them all the steps they already knew by heart and that they trained almost every day since their journey around India begun.
As Reid was imagining Luke sliding his hand down his belly, he let out loud groan and felt his penis stand up as his image of Luke´s hand was too real, or perhaps he imagined it felt real. He could sense the strokes of Luke´s hand on his body. Reid opened his eyes and turned his head to the right to see Luke lying next to him peacefully, his chest rising and falling, lips slightly open, and his pelvis making tiny but visible thrusts upwards, apparently in deep concentration.
It was probably nothing, Reid thought, and continued with the image of Luke pressing on his perineum and then taking hold of his penis at the root and starting to ride it with his palm. He felt it again, and stronger this time. Luke´s strokes were so firm and real, he couldn’t believe he was lying next to him motionless. As if his body lost the ability to recognize a picture in his brain versus real touch. Reid stared at Luke, who was lying next to him, almost drooling with want, and in that moment, Luke turned his head and their eyes locked. Luke opened his mouth wider and spread his legs as his throat groaned with deep moans. Reid could now see the soft and warm insides of Luke’s mouth, the mouth that he´d love to drink from, his pelvis now moving rhythmically and his cock completely erected and dripping his milk.
Luke noticed at the very beginning that somehow his images were livelier and clearer than usual, and after few rounds of Reid´s ministrations in his mind, he realized his experience had moved to another level. He really sensed what he was imagining because his yantra was so strong. He imagined that Reid was masturbating him the way he loved, with fingers inside him circling as wide and deep as possible, and his other hand sliding up and down his big cock in rotating motions. It was so easy to get lost in such pleasure and now Luke was losing himself in Reid´s blue eyes penetrating his, where lust and astonishment were reflected.
They stared at each other, lying motionless side by side, both amazed and lost in their experience of how they worked each other to once again unknown heights, now fully aware that all the activity was in their minds, yet physically real, fully felt it in their bodies, without touching each other. It was like two ancient sword warriors, where the whole fight happens in their minds before they make the first step to cross the blades. They started to quicken their breaths as the moves of the pelvis quickened as well. As if present in each other´s minds, they pronounced in synchronization “Pad dah omah” and silenced their moves along with their breaths.
In the next moment Reid unexpectedly grabbed Luke´s heating body and pressed him as close as possible into his chest, grabbing his ass, leaving no space between their erections and frantically thrusting his pelvis towards Luke´s, letting out loud cries of passion in long low moans coming from the depths of his throat. It was the sound of someone who does not know what else to do with their emotions, so they must cry and roar otherwise they would explode inside. He HAD TO feel him.
Suddenly Luke flipped them over, covering Reid´s body, almost violently, with his, and pressed himself between Reid´s fighting thighs, pressed his arms above his head to the ground, then lowered his lips to his ear and dangerously whispered, “I know, it was too good and I felt what you felt but now we will continue and I want to take you further, my love.” Neither of them knew the meaning or where the words came from but it was soon to be brought to light.
“Please”, was all Reid was able to utter before the word disappeared in another loud cry of heated, helpless passion. Luke could see all the fear written in his face from what the future might bring, the future that Luke now knew. And he knew only good things were to happen to them and that he would take care of Reid´s heart as long as his own heart would beat and that it would be for very long time. Luke was certain and calm inside again, and he felt strong for Reid and for both of them. Reid saw this strength radiating from the eyes of his lover, and the turmoil in his head and stomach slowly eased away.
Then Luke gently sat next to Reid and pronounced omm adhi omm, in order to bring them both to awareness and to continue with the session. Having their bodies sensualized enough a while ago, more than any of them would expect, Luke started to slide his fingers lightly down over Reid´s eyes, nose, beautiful lips, down his throat, through the center of chest, lower to the belly and to his hard penis. Taking hold of it Luke started to move along the shaft on its whole length still penetrating Reid with his clear sight, the sight so determined and certain that made Reid want to cut himself open for Luke and let himself be eaten and taken whole. Reid felt shivers running from the bottom of the spine up to his crown chakra and he knew it was one of the energetic effects that was caused by sensations that kept awaking the energy, which moved from his center below the navel where the sleeping kundalini force dwelled. Reid felt the interconnection with Luke and it seemed to him his senses sharpened so much as if he were on a mountain treck similar to the one he used to make when he was young, or what happens when you walk in deep woods for a long time without speaking to a soul gaining animal instincts. As his senses sharpened, so did his experience of Luke´s motions.
I love it how he is doing this….yeah faster…
Luke started to ride Reid´s cock faster with his hand, thinking if he just heard Reid saying it loud or he heard it in his head.
Press me harder baby don’t be afraid … other hand to my hole…
Knowing exactly where to push and when to release, in the exact rhythm of his moans, Luke brought his other hand close to Reid´s entrance and circled and pressed until it let him in and buried his two fingers.
Yeah come deeper I am available for you… Luke looked at Reid and tittered and then did exactly what he felt he heard. Reid snapped opened his eyes and looked at him suspiciously.
“What? “, Luke smiled.
“Are you reading my mind?”
Luke smiled innocently followed by shot of devilish spark in his eyes and pressed even harder so that Reid arched and shook with wave of pleasure shooting through him.
I so love to be inside you Reid, you have no idea my love…I´d love to be inside you forever, always belong to you…
“Pah dah omah…” Reid cried as Luke´s thought he had no idea how he felt sent him over the edge and he knew he would shoot his large dose of sperm. Luke let him calm down and breathing gently he waited. He allowed total peace permeate him because he had heard the one thought Reid probably didn’t even recognize he’d had.
Luke now laid down in the soft fabrics and closed his eyes. Reid slowly circled his nipples and gently slid his hands to his penis, took hold of it, and wetting the fingers of his other hand in his mouth, slowly started to press his finger in Luke´s entrance and waited. Then he slid a bit more inside and started to work him inside gently, without rush, soon feeling Luke responding with soft moans.
“Tell me what do you feel Luke?”
“Ahh… exactly where I like it, as if you feel where you should touch, strong urge to take you in, to open for you, to make to love to you…” He heard Reid gulp and let out suppressed moan. Reid continued and tried to masturbate him the way Luke was doing to himself before. Suddenly Luke grabbed his hands and stilled them. Both waited fully alert and patient, observing each others faces that mirrored loving lust peppered with playfulness and expectation of the journey. Luke pulled his hand back and Reid continued the masturbation. They continued for about three more cycles of this. Each time Luke simply used his will and stopped Reid and Reid respected it immediately. They knew these cycles were giving them power. Each time Luke managed to stop Reid just before he would orgasm he felt as if he won over his ego, as if he were freed from being just dragged by wants and needs of his body. Each time Luke stopped him, Reid learned patience and what it meant to be here for somebody and totally in the present moment. He felt free yet Luke´s.