taking a trip, hitch hiking to the thousand islands.
see some old friends.
cant wait.
leaving friday.

woke up after another night of dreaming ( Read more... )

my god are dreams random. they go from me running away from the law to me helping the jedi in a showdown against darthsidius. and yes this was all one dream. i like to think that things mean things, such as dreams meaning things. but i wonder if mine are just commercials for acid or mushrooms saying "you can see this when you're awake too ( Read more... )

every new moments a new start.
if you actually do it, its true.

i want to move on ( Read more... )

my hearts hurting.
i dont know why...
i cant fucking stop it .
i need to get out
i put my hand to my chest and feel it trying to rip itself out
i'm not writing down metaphors for my feelings
this is how i feel, physically, emotionally
i cant tell

i've reached my low. only place to go from here is up i guess.
i've actually started exercising everyday
its weird
it hurts haha
i'm down to 3-6 cigarettes a day
good compared to 25
and now i'm controlling myself
because lets face it
while i was a nice guy
i was a bit of an animal
i lived on instincts , impulses and addictions

it has been a weird week ( Read more... )

god i'm bored...
and actually for once very sexually frusterated
i need a coffee..
i dont even know why i'm writing this stuff

now heres my problem ( Read more... )