well today pretty much sucked...stupid parade! lets just say my knee still hurts and i still feel weak..( i almost passed out)....well id liked to say thank you for helping mary you didnt have to hold the bottle on my neck...and kerry thanks for helping mee up in the band room ( Read more... )

long story short.........

i was only fooling my sefl i mean it was working i was convincing myself there for a while till this morning...gosh my days are so flip flop...i wish i knew how to fix everything...*cloes eyes to try and disappear*
~i have a really bad headache it is literally pounding...it hurts and i dont feel good...:(
~thanks for making me luagh today~
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ive said some stuff but can i say the rest.... things are kinda seeming better but i am still skeptical.... i dont know how to feel or why i feel the way i do...im lost ..im not who i use to be and dont know what i want to do...grrrr.....im gettin better i think i will get better i can do i have faith. ive got to do better for myself...i just have ( Read more... )

sometimes you just have to take a step back and realize that its not worth it and to realize that you need to stop being a birch...im osrry for being like that....i have more to write but i a m pressed for time...ill write tomorrow
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another stupid year another stupid valentines with no valentine and anotheryear of watching all the girls with their boyfriends be as happy as they can be with their flowers and stuffed animals...as they walk down the hall with thier fingers interlocked and i look beside me and i am walking alone and alone i am inside and not only in the ( Read more... )

well to sum it up in a nutshell:wierd...i just dont get it..i mean how one day i dont know how to explain it exactly...how one minute im good enough then the next im not is the most vague way to put it...i mean its just confusing the hell out of me how since like the beginning of the year its been this way and now it just keeps switching...i have ( Read more... )

well i have been all jumbled up lately ...like completely and utterly confused about a lot of things..everything is all out of wack...gosh...well ill write later cause i have to go set the table and finish up dinner...*SIGH*

wel today was a crazy day i was think all optimistic like today is gonna be a good day trying to become more of the way i use to but it all went down hill... i started feeling all sad everything wasnt working so i just gave up then to come home and argur with my brother didnt help when they both gang up on me i hate being the youngest. this is the ( Read more... )

WHAT DO I DO???? GRRRRRRR