unrehearsed and unedited
so apparently i keep fucking up.
i don't know how.
and i dont know why.
and i dont realize or recognize when i fuck up.
but i do.
and i don't mean to, i really dont.
but i don't know what people want.
so i try to make people happy.
and it doesnt work.
and then i stick up for myself.
and i'm a jerk.
and then i try to explain why i was a little bit ticked off by being called a jerk.
and i'm "picking a fight"
so.
i.
keep.
fucking.
up.
and i dont know how to stop.
and i've come to the conclusion taht that's not such a bad thing.
because the more you fuck up, the less percent of that fucking up will have bad consequences.
think about it.
if you fuck up all the time, people will come to expect it.
so, the majority of the time, you won't fuck up really bad, but you'll still be fucking up.
so people won't fuck you for fucking up, and you won't be as fucked.
also, you wont fuck with your own mind as much, because fucking up will be the norm.
however.
if you never fuck up, then your fuck ups will be monumental.
because people dont fucking expect you to fuck up.
therefore, you'll be positively fucked if you fuck up, because you strive for perfection so much.
you'll also fuck yourself more because you're so fucking obsessed with not fucking up that when you do fuck up your fucking world fucking collapses.
but what you dont get is when you don't fuck up, you're the one that's fucked up, not the fuck up.
is that fucked up or what?
geez, i must be the biggest fuck up taht ever fucked up.
and if i keep fucking up i dunno what im gonna fucking do.
well im a fuck up, but im a fucking happy fuck up and if you cant be happy with me fucking up and be happy with me being a fuck up then fuck you because i will keep fucking up if you keep putting me in situations where im bound to fuck up and you want me to fuck up because i dont fucking know what you fuckin want.
there, that was fucking off the top of my fucking head.
i don't remember half the fucking things i fucking said.
but you fucking wanted me to fucking say un-fucking-rehearsed shit and so there you fucking have it.
and it'f fucking possible that half the fucking shit in here i dont fucking mean but god fucking damnit i said it and i probably cant fucking defent it but i can fucking do it.
i don't know how.
and i dont know why.
and i dont realize or recognize when i fuck up.
but i do.
and i don't mean to, i really dont.
but i don't know what people want.
so i try to make people happy.
and it doesnt work.
and then i stick up for myself.
and i'm a jerk.
and then i try to explain why i was a little bit ticked off by being called a jerk.
and i'm "picking a fight"
so.
i.
keep.
fucking.
up.
and i dont know how to stop.
and i've come to the conclusion taht that's not such a bad thing.
because the more you fuck up, the less percent of that fucking up will have bad consequences.
think about it.
if you fuck up all the time, people will come to expect it.
so, the majority of the time, you won't fuck up really bad, but you'll still be fucking up.
so people won't fuck you for fucking up, and you won't be as fucked.
also, you wont fuck with your own mind as much, because fucking up will be the norm.
however.
if you never fuck up, then your fuck ups will be monumental.
because people dont fucking expect you to fuck up.
therefore, you'll be positively fucked if you fuck up, because you strive for perfection so much.
you'll also fuck yourself more because you're so fucking obsessed with not fucking up that when you do fuck up your fucking world fucking collapses.
but what you dont get is when you don't fuck up, you're the one that's fucked up, not the fuck up.
is that fucked up or what?
geez, i must be the biggest fuck up taht ever fucked up.
and if i keep fucking up i dunno what im gonna fucking do.
well im a fuck up, but im a fucking happy fuck up and if you cant be happy with me fucking up and be happy with me being a fuck up then fuck you because i will keep fucking up if you keep putting me in situations where im bound to fuck up and you want me to fuck up because i dont fucking know what you fuckin want.
there, that was fucking off the top of my fucking head.
i don't remember half the fucking things i fucking said.
but you fucking wanted me to fucking say un-fucking-rehearsed shit and so there you fucking have it.
and it'f fucking possible that half the fucking shit in here i dont fucking mean but god fucking damnit i said it and i probably cant fucking defent it but i can fucking do it.