I think it's safe to say that this past week has certainly not been the best week of my life. There have been alot of revelations that even I have been guilty of not acknowledging in the past. I always knew at one point, it would get to be a dire situation where it would have to be addressed in some way, shape or form but I didn't expect it to ( Read more... )

I can't seem to force the what if's out of my head. They swirl round and round like a ride at a carnival and the ride never seems to stop. Or sometimes it does, and I get off and then the next time it comes around it seems like its going faster and faster untill it's spinning out of control. I guess what I've come to fear is the tradgedy of life. ( Read more... )

It's hard to believe another year has gone by since last christmas. Ironic how every christmas or new years I promise myself it will be different next year and every year I find myself in the same situation- wishing my life was better. Wishing I had someone else to spend the time with other than my family, and I know that sounds horrible. If I'm ( Read more... )

I am proud of myself that I got straight B's this semester. A gift from god if you ask me. I was really on the borderline in two classes. But considering the best case scenario for my grades was to get straight B's and the reality was that the outcome was the best possible case scenario for me, I somewhat now hold on to hope that maybe it is ( Read more... )

My Rules For Life ( Read more... )

I'm a little scared right now and I feel really alone. It just takes so much out of me everytime I call home past 9 and I know the other voice on the end is going to be slurred. It's tiring, annoying and aggravating. But more than that, it's hurtful. Ever since I was in third grade, my mom has put wine above me. It makes me sick to my stomach to ( Read more... )

I'll try to keep this short and sweet cause its been awhile. Today I had a radical sabbatical, and decided to finish my eating disorder class two days early. So, I called in dinner, and by the time I went to pick it up I took the last quiz of the class. I got a B, it may go up to a B plus, and I would have had an A if my paper that I really got a ( Read more... )

So, finally ( Read more... )

It's official: the universe hates me. I start the day waking up to a horrible sore throat. Its ten o'clock and I decide to miss my one hour class because I don't feel up to it. I go back to sleep. When I venture out to run an errand, I encounter horrific traffic at akward hours. I miss a turn. Then I have to wait in more traffic to get back to the ( Read more... )

So as soon as I realize how I have never truly broken away from my parents and how I really need to- they invade Gainesville all frivolous. Firstly, it doesn't take an idiot to figure out that the power is not going to take a month to come back on, yet they are already looking for houses and apartments here. This is a perfect example of how they ( Read more... )