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I feel a little silly about my behavior in my recent post. Perhaps in the insanity I let myself get a bit...addled in the head as well. Enough to be influenced in such an exaggerated way. I apologise for that; I'm a bit embarassed over it.
Nonetheless, I am grateful...incredibly grateful, to the people that I have met here. My...friends?
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I said terrible things to you when we last spoke. For that, I wish to apologise.
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Perhaps I will never be relieved of these worries. Deep anxieties, feelings of uselessness... Perhaps, however, they heal only with time. Perhaps I will never know. Nonetheless, it is...strange, in a wonderful way, to feel welcome here. I feel like an equal, as though I have friends. It's quite heartwarming.
...I wish to speak with Howl. Or Calcifer. Or...maybe both. He said "I love you," and when I think about that, my heart feels as though it is being squeezed. I don't know if he meant it; I don't know if he's capable of meaning it. But I...
Oh, I don't know. At heart I'm just a silly girl with silly feelings.
I should spend more time with Link, as well. And Malon and Roam. And all of my friends. My friends...it's odd to say. I'll have to become more used to it.
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Nonetheless, I am grateful...incredibly grateful, to the people that I have met here. My...friends?
[filtered to Roam]
I said terrible things to you when we last spoke. For that, I wish to apologise.
[/filtered]
[private]
Perhaps I will never be relieved of these worries. Deep anxieties, feelings of uselessness... Perhaps, however, they heal only with time. Perhaps I will never know. Nonetheless, it is...strange, in a wonderful way, to feel welcome here. I feel like an equal, as though I have friends. It's quite heartwarming.
...I wish to speak with Howl. Or Calcifer. Or...maybe both. He said "I love you," and when I think about that, my heart feels as though it is being squeezed. I don't know if he meant it; I don't know if he's capable of meaning it. But I...
Oh, I don't know. At heart I'm just a silly girl with silly feelings.
I should spend more time with Link, as well. And Malon and Roam. And all of my friends. My friends...it's odd to say. I'll have to become more used to it.
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