“You know what I’ve discovered…we aren’t ordinary. People don’t get ‘stuck’ in jobs - they decide to stay there even if they’re unhappy. We don’t do that - we don’t settle. We decide we’re going to be happy because we decide to do something about it.”

"You know what - every week a ridiculous amount of money gets deducted from my paycheck to pay for ( Read more... )

Posted on January 31st, 2006 at 12:03 am 
sometime relatively soon, it'd be nice to be the "important girl," instead of "the girl in between the important girl." 
it'll happen.

wow...and now i'm the important girl. it DID happen.

in other news...my job is boring. SO boring. there's not that much people interaction and i just kind of sit at a desk in ( Read more... )

i know this is supposed to happen. you're supposed to grow up and get a job and be successful. and its not even like i'm totally there yet...i haven't even graduated. but i'm thinking i may never want to ( Read more... )

so you learn lots of things when you're in a relationship. about yourself and about others. and i'm learning that i'm not a very comfortable person ( Read more... )

i worry too much about too many things

and i compare

and i've learned that comparison is the thief of joy

and worrying gets me...nowhere. and it gets me there unhappy too.

and that's the weird part about it all...

that in trying to make someone happy, you hurt them. and you can't really take it back or make excuses; you can only apologize and hope they still love you in the end.

i'm sorry again. i really am sorry.

i'm updating this for myself...so i can remember. so i'll never forget ( Read more... )

when exactly did i get so cynical ( Read more... )

ouch
ouch
ouch
ouch
OUCH.

i know i'm a once-in-a-lifetime girl.

....the question is: can i trust you with my heart?

From a journal entry on June 15th, 2006:

for awhile recently, i've been eating a LOT of cheetos.  and by cheetos...i mean boys.  stupid boys.

the thing about cheetos is, they taste so good at first - but you forget how bad they are for you, and how bad they make you feel afterwards. you know in your head that you should go for the whole wheat. i've ( Read more... )