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For some reason I'm ridiculously hyper.
Current time: 3:38 AM.
Current musics: Kelly Clarkson. I just had the urge to listen to my buddy Kelly.
I think I want to rearrange my room.
Although I've got many a compliment on the current arrangement.
My mom bought a new TV for the living room.
So I got the old one, which is much larger than the current one I have.
I'm still undecided on whether I want it or not.
I mean I do have bad eye sight, so it would be nice not to have to put the TV so close to my bed.
BUT it's so damn big.
Almost too big.
Hypnotize the new System album rocks my life.
They never disappoint.
I want to DANCE!
I just have this urge to waltz down my street.
How fun would that be?
I think I had a dream I was trying to teach someone to waltz.
I have a recurring dream where I'm teaching my friends Reverance.
Strange.
What does dreaming about rape mean?
The last two nights I've dreamt I've been raped.
Well it didn't actually happen, but I knew that was the intent.
I always wake up right before I'm attacked.
Wow.
Well according to the Dream Dictionary:
To dream that you have been raped, suggests a sadistic expression of sexual desire. You may be expressing an unconscious desire to be violated, conquered, or forced into forbidden territory. Some women have a desire to be sexually overpowered, but not hurt. It also indicates vengeful feelings toward the opposite sex. Alternatively, it suggests that you are feeling violated in some way. Something or someone is jeopardizing your self-esteem and emotional well-being. You feel that someone or something is being forced upon you. Dreams of rape are also common for those who were actually raped in their waking life.
Well I sure hope I don't have a desire to be violated.
That's just silly.
You have disappointed me Dream Dictionary!
So 2006 huh?
It's almost here.
This year has been a blur.
Are the rest of our lives just going to zoom by?
I sure hope not.
I'm thirsty.
GREEN TEA!
hahahahahaha
I fell down the stairs!
I slipped on Jeannette's dirty laundry and just slid down the stairs!
It was actually kinda fun.
You know what I took notice of though?
My mother is not home yet.
Current time: 3:53 AM
WHORE!
I hate Jay Leno.
He isn't funny.
He just annoys the hell out of me.
Same to Letterman.
Conan's my late night man.
I would like to go to one of his shows.
I wonder how that works?
I've been thinking a lot about old friends.
It's just weird how quickly people come in and out of your life.
Either I'm easily confused or others are just so very confusing.
Whichever it is, I don't like this constant state of confusion!
So stop it you dirty micks!
I've been in a Sylvia mood a lot lately.
I just can't seem to stop reading her stuffs.
She truly was an amazing writer.
Makes me sad that she is gone.
I mean isn't it strange how very much I can connect with her work?
Maybe it isn't strange at all, because maybe her and I are connected somehow.
That would rock my world.
Or perhaps emotions are more simplistic than I thought.
If that were true, it would be more accurate to say that she just appeals to basic emotions.
Although I can't help but think it is more than that.
Hey a girl can hope okay.
My favorite poem, by far will always be Three Woman
Its about the birth of her child, yet so much of it appeals to me.
"How long can I be a wall around my green property?
How long can my hands
Be a bandage to his hurt, and my words
Bright birds in the sky, consoling, consoling?
It is a terrible thing
To be so open: it is as if my heart
Put on a face and walked into the world."
Read it.
and thank me later.
Ok I'm done.
only because I'm bored.