cause a promise is a promise.. i know
okay, i just realized this was way long- so instead of attacking the friends pages, i'll use cuts- if you want to read it - click. if not- don't. ;)
Friday
It rained Friday, thankfully for Shannon and I. we decided to go to the movies. Originally we were gonna see the lizzie mcguire movie, but we got there and it was sold out- so we got tickets for "down with love". We had an hour to kill until it came on, so we ventured over to Genaurdi's for cheaper candy. THEY TOOK THAT HUGE CANDY WALL DOWN!! talk about a ruined trip! but we managed, somehow bought a 5.00 bag of candy that was supposed to be 3.29, and did some drug deals outside. Stuffing candy everywhere.. "they'll never suspect a thing" :) the movie was cute i guess. It was just a fun time hanging out with Nu, and I'm glad we had that extra hour to fool around and be ourselves. :)
He came over after I got home- i forget what happened. oh nevermind. yeah we just watched some high quality television.
Saturday i went to half of my soccer game, cause we had to leave to go to a graduation party. Daryl came. The party was boring x 8. none of my family knew anyone, so it was like an entire family of wallflowers. i bet people walked by and thought "yeah, it's a shame those kids have no hope. look at the rest of the family not mingling either." orm aybe not. but it was cold outside. daryl and I went for a walk, found some left overs from a garage sale. after the party we got my mom to drive by and get it. he knocks on the door and asks to take it, she says sure- he insists on giving her a dollar, we stuff the wicker chest in the trunk- drive maybe 2 miles, pull off in some empty parking lot and decide we don't want the wicker chest anymore- so we leave it behind the car, invisible until we drive away. badass i tell ya. hahah. it was amusing.
oh, and then he almost died because he thought it'd be a great idea to get rid of the built up energy he had- to sprint from the entrance of my development to my house. he was going ffasstt, came back and wasn't looking too healthy. took him a while to recover. i was a little afraid, he like lost all color and stuff.
"remind me to never do that again." lesson learned. :)
after he could see straight, we went to rent movies. We've figuredo ut it's easier for us both to pick our own because otherwise, we stand there for 30 minutes exchanging "i don't care"s and "whatever you feel like". I got "On The Edge" and he got "From Hell"
On The Edge was really really good. kind of sad, kind of psycho- but good. and we made it all the way. Accomplishment #2. go us.
From Hell was weird, or the first 2 minutes of it. i fell asleep. i woke back up a little later and he wasn't there. i was all confused, you fall asleep with someone and wake up and they're not there= discombobulatedness. (nice word. heh) and then he came back in my room to find his keys, but i was awake so he decided not to leave. and then we both fell asleep and i guess he left eventually, cause i woke up in the morning and he was gone. he said he left when my mom came home..whenever that was.
and then freaked my sister out. haha ;P
Sunday
everyone else was asleep or gone this morning, as was everyone in his house- so we decided to go to AC Moore or something, but he came over and i was getting ready, and he said he didnt really feel like going anymore so we'd just hang out here. the shetzlers called so i said i'd babysit, i need the money and we weren't doing anything. We were watching tv and he said about 10 words, and then he said he'd take me over to the shetzlers. we're in the car and he won't say anything. so of course i think 1098 things, i ask him what's wrong and he just shrugged his shoulders and said "nothing."
right. i asked him if he wanted to come in, or if he was going to his friends.
"ill go"
"okay... ill talk to you later then."
"okay. bye"
he called about 15 minutes later saying his friends were busy and asked if he could come over, so he did.. and that marked the start of .. i don't even know what to call it.
he went and watched a movie with Nate, PK and i hung out.. sharing one word answers to the seldom comments or questions. everyonce in a while Payton would break the silence and say something. it was weird and i didn't know what was going on.. why i wasn't talking, or why he wasn't.
Payton and I were playing with rainbow art, and he sits down and starts messing with it. i couldn't look at him because i have issues with that stuff when bad things are happening. i glanced at his paper and he wrote "She Hates Me" and then another saying "I dont think she likes me" i got this huge lump in my throat, so i left to go clean up the mess that wasn't there.. came back to color with PK, he slides a piece of paper over with a "=( what's wrong?" through rainbow art. so i write back "i don't know. what happened between 1 and now.. and why haven't we said 20 words since you've been here?" it was all sloppy because my hand was shaking and rainbow art isn't for writing. i went to do the dishes that were barely there (they will have the cleanest cups on earth) he came over and was like "i dont know whats wrong with me. i was just bored i guess." he asked if i was okay,i asked if he was, and life goes on.
i don't know, i don't know what caused it and i'm not sure why I suck so much at just speaking up. we got nate dressed and went outside to play, and everything was okay.
weird.
we were talking about it later and made a promise to not do that again, because that was the worst 2and a half hours in the past few months.. "you mean a lot to me, and i dont want something stupid that we don't even know about to get between us.. so lets not ever do that again. you say what's on your mind and i'll say what's on mine.. promise?"
"promise."
"good."
he thought i was mad at him, i thought he was mad at me.
lack of communication= bad stuff.
but we're good.. he stayed for dinner and we watched Armageddon, everything is fine
it was just awkward and i'm glad it's over.
igotta go to bed.
3 day week. woohoo :D :)
goodnight.
Friday
It rained Friday, thankfully for Shannon and I. we decided to go to the movies. Originally we were gonna see the lizzie mcguire movie, but we got there and it was sold out- so we got tickets for "down with love". We had an hour to kill until it came on, so we ventured over to Genaurdi's for cheaper candy. THEY TOOK THAT HUGE CANDY WALL DOWN!! talk about a ruined trip! but we managed, somehow bought a 5.00 bag of candy that was supposed to be 3.29, and did some drug deals outside. Stuffing candy everywhere.. "they'll never suspect a thing" :) the movie was cute i guess. It was just a fun time hanging out with Nu, and I'm glad we had that extra hour to fool around and be ourselves. :)
He came over after I got home- i forget what happened. oh nevermind. yeah we just watched some high quality television.
Saturday i went to half of my soccer game, cause we had to leave to go to a graduation party. Daryl came. The party was boring x 8. none of my family knew anyone, so it was like an entire family of wallflowers. i bet people walked by and thought "yeah, it's a shame those kids have no hope. look at the rest of the family not mingling either." orm aybe not. but it was cold outside. daryl and I went for a walk, found some left overs from a garage sale. after the party we got my mom to drive by and get it. he knocks on the door and asks to take it, she says sure- he insists on giving her a dollar, we stuff the wicker chest in the trunk- drive maybe 2 miles, pull off in some empty parking lot and decide we don't want the wicker chest anymore- so we leave it behind the car, invisible until we drive away. badass i tell ya. hahah. it was amusing.
oh, and then he almost died because he thought it'd be a great idea to get rid of the built up energy he had- to sprint from the entrance of my development to my house. he was going ffasstt, came back and wasn't looking too healthy. took him a while to recover. i was a little afraid, he like lost all color and stuff.
"remind me to never do that again." lesson learned. :)
after he could see straight, we went to rent movies. We've figuredo ut it's easier for us both to pick our own because otherwise, we stand there for 30 minutes exchanging "i don't care"s and "whatever you feel like". I got "On The Edge" and he got "From Hell"
On The Edge was really really good. kind of sad, kind of psycho- but good. and we made it all the way. Accomplishment #2. go us.
From Hell was weird, or the first 2 minutes of it. i fell asleep. i woke back up a little later and he wasn't there. i was all confused, you fall asleep with someone and wake up and they're not there= discombobulatedness. (nice word. heh) and then he came back in my room to find his keys, but i was awake so he decided not to leave. and then we both fell asleep and i guess he left eventually, cause i woke up in the morning and he was gone. he said he left when my mom came home..whenever that was.
and then freaked my sister out. haha ;P
Sunday
everyone else was asleep or gone this morning, as was everyone in his house- so we decided to go to AC Moore or something, but he came over and i was getting ready, and he said he didnt really feel like going anymore so we'd just hang out here. the shetzlers called so i said i'd babysit, i need the money and we weren't doing anything. We were watching tv and he said about 10 words, and then he said he'd take me over to the shetzlers. we're in the car and he won't say anything. so of course i think 1098 things, i ask him what's wrong and he just shrugged his shoulders and said "nothing."
right. i asked him if he wanted to come in, or if he was going to his friends.
"ill go"
"okay... ill talk to you later then."
"okay. bye"
he called about 15 minutes later saying his friends were busy and asked if he could come over, so he did.. and that marked the start of .. i don't even know what to call it.
he went and watched a movie with Nate, PK and i hung out.. sharing one word answers to the seldom comments or questions. everyonce in a while Payton would break the silence and say something. it was weird and i didn't know what was going on.. why i wasn't talking, or why he wasn't.
Payton and I were playing with rainbow art, and he sits down and starts messing with it. i couldn't look at him because i have issues with that stuff when bad things are happening. i glanced at his paper and he wrote "She Hates Me" and then another saying "I dont think she likes me" i got this huge lump in my throat, so i left to go clean up the mess that wasn't there.. came back to color with PK, he slides a piece of paper over with a "=( what's wrong?" through rainbow art. so i write back "i don't know. what happened between 1 and now.. and why haven't we said 20 words since you've been here?" it was all sloppy because my hand was shaking and rainbow art isn't for writing. i went to do the dishes that were barely there (they will have the cleanest cups on earth) he came over and was like "i dont know whats wrong with me. i was just bored i guess." he asked if i was okay,i asked if he was, and life goes on.
i don't know, i don't know what caused it and i'm not sure why I suck so much at just speaking up. we got nate dressed and went outside to play, and everything was okay.
weird.
we were talking about it later and made a promise to not do that again, because that was the worst 2and a half hours in the past few months.. "you mean a lot to me, and i dont want something stupid that we don't even know about to get between us.. so lets not ever do that again. you say what's on your mind and i'll say what's on mine.. promise?"
"promise."
"good."
he thought i was mad at him, i thought he was mad at me.
lack of communication= bad stuff.
but we're good.. he stayed for dinner and we watched Armageddon, everything is fine
it was just awkward and i'm glad it's over.
igotta go to bed.
3 day week. woohoo :D :)
goodnight.