One of my friends just asked me in IMs how I could have changed so much, in just one summer. I just told her shit happens, and you grow up. I'm a lot more cynical than I was a few months ago, I don't really feel like that girl with all that energy anymore, inside. Outside I may seem it, and sometimes I feel it, but lately, very rarely. And I guess ( Read more... )

People make mistakes. But sometimes the mistakes you make are irreparable, and you loose everything that once mattered. And I won't chase after a/your ghost anymore, no matter how much I may want to. So, I have to say this, before I can move all the way on. Good-bye. I hope life treats you well ( Read more... )

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Just wrote a long-ass entry and marked it as private. Debating whether or not to post it as "friends only" or "public" Eh, doesn't matter either way. Let me just recap on crap real quick in this little dinky entry, even though I just did in the other one...Got the job at the Chocolate Gallery...well, almost. The owner called me today and asked me ( Read more... )

I don't have much time to update this...I have to go and get my ass moving...get ready. Lotsa things have happened since that last entry, good and bad. Right now I'm in Brittany's room, with freezing feet from her AC...and I really have to get going. Update later.

I broke up with him. And everything is in complete shambles. I can't eat, I feel strained and dead. I shake when I walk. I hurt him so bad, and everyone is telling me how selfish it was. He destroyed the guitar he loved because I hurt him. He went far out into the ocean in a kayak because I made him crazy. Just add things onto the fact that I ( Read more... )

Okay, here's the conclusion. Right now, I'm with my boyfriend, that's where I really want to be, and for as long as it lasts, that's where I'm staying. I still want to talk to *him* and get all this pain sorted out, so we can just be friends again, and get on with it, you know? I want/need to hear *him* tell me why, out of his own mouth. I talked ( Read more... )

*He* fucked me over, and I'm drained. And I'm taken, just not by *him*. Oh, *he* has someone else, and I have someone better. But it still hurts. And I'm already doubting my relationship with my boyfriend. Dear God, I'm not used to saying that. And I should be ecstatically happy instead of fucking doubting. Is it normal to have doubts, after just ( Read more... )