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[ahugandkisstogo]

So this song pretty much explains how I feel right now about my real dad.

I always try to make things work between him and I.

He always makes excuses and in the past I've looked past them, just so I can have a relationship with him.

Why?

And now he's mad at me because I don't listen to his bullshit lies anymore.

Well I'm not a little girl, and I'm

Comments

[crying_in_rain]

awe pam, im sorry sweetie, But at least you relize that it is his loss, Your an amazing, loving, sweet, girl who i can tell is so In love with God, and thats from me, and i havnt even met you in person yet! But i still can see what a beautiful person you are! Have a good night!

[ahugandkisstogo]

awe thank you Bri!
You're so sweet.
We'll cross paths someday.
I'm sure of that.
Probably at youth group.
When I start going again.
Haha
<3

[2qt2handle]

aww pam, im really sorry

[ahugandkisstogo]

Yeah, my dad used to be in my life when I was younger. Always when he had a girlfriend. I remember this one girlfriend, Julie, she had a son my age, David. Julie was a good mom to David, but didn't like my mom and step dad (Dane) so SHE took MY mom and Dane to court over us saying she and my dad want custody over all 5 of us girls. My mom never even liked us spending the weekends with my dad yet alone our entire lives. Well it's funny because David was a horrible child, and Julie was nice, but also a bitch. But no way should she have been able to take care of us five. And a big problem I have with my dad, is that he couldn't take care of his girls, but he adopted a son, Scott. Not really adopted but took him in and Scott's been around since I was about 6, and he still is. Well I absolutely hate Scott, I'm terrified of him for many reasons. One day when I was 6 or 7 all my cousins were at my dads old house in Alpine and I didn't want to leave my cousins so Scott and David were like do you wanna stay and i was like yeah and they were

[2qt2handle]

Well I was just commenting on this because of the part about dad's walking their daughters down the aisle. Well my sister has the same situation as Nicole and her father. MY sister lived with her dad every other week until she was 7 then she lived with my mom and my dad, except when he would call to see her sometimes. When her dad got married and she would be over there, they wouldnt even tell her when dinner was ready they would just eat without her...mean stuff like that.
When it came time for my sister's wedding it was hard for her to chose between her dad and her father. She loves her father but she loves my dad in a different way, if hat makes any sence at all. So she walked by herself...brave girl!

We have this thingy in my house...dont know what to call it some thing in this frame but anyways...it says "Any man can be a father but it takes someone special to be a daddy" I thought you could relate to that. i love you girlies both so much...he's missin out!

pam pam pam

[thiskiss826]

okay so we have different situations with our dads...but we both have issues with our dads. at times i hate him...at times i want him to die...and at times i cry just wanting him to love me. if you need to talk...i dont mind if you talk for HOURS, cause i know it's possible with dad stuff. i love you pamela...sooo much.

Re: pam pam pam

[ahugandkisstogo]

awe thank you Rachel :)
I pray for your dad all the time.
I hope he's getting better.
If you need to talk about him, I'm here too.
I love you even more.

Re: PAMMY!!!

[ahugandkisstogo]

yeah, you're right. your grandma has a very good point.
I'm so very thankful he is in my life.
I don't know where I'd be without him

Thank you Stroh Baby :)

[youllbemissinme]

Basically...

f-him. (remember, Im not cussing anymore lol)
We dont need him in our lives anymore.
We dont need the let down or the hurt.
We dont need the lies.
And he doesnt deserve us.
He doesnt deserve the fake hugs, looks, laughs, talks, anything.
I hate him.
I love you.

<3 Dej