if you want something bad enough, you will go for it. but, what happens if you are too afraid to lose what you already have to go for something more? is it better to have loved and lost than to never have loved? sometimes going for the one thing you want destroys what you have...it can get complicated i suppose. me. hmm. i have been in a ( Read more... )

i feel myself wanting changes. from little to big. you know, people say you hit 40 and have this so-called mid-life crisis....well, i guess that is how i feel. i just want different things. maybe its a phase ( Read more... )

http://sports.yahoo.com/nhl/news?slug=ap-penguins-arena&prov=ap&type=lgns

this is blasphemy

so, i have been away from this in a long time, but i think i need to start laying out thougths again. and since, not many people read this, i dont have to be nearly as concernend with some comments ( Read more... )

yesterday was the first day on the job. it was nice. pretty fun. went to a meeting and wrote an article on that. then, i was given my first feature article! scary. we will see how it goes ( Read more... )

it will be good for me to get back to work. then i will be able to rid myself of some of this thinking that i do. it clearly isnt helping much ( Read more... )

so, i did get a job. finally. start in one week. its stellar as meghan would say.

also, exciting news. st. patricks eve, broad ripple, the vogue: tossers. pumped!

saddam was finally executed. i doubt the world is any better off? and then man who pushed for his capture, trial, and death sentence was not even there to see it. you would think that he would have wanted that. strange. anyway, this is how we shall always remember the end of 2006 i suppose. if you are truly into it and all. me, i will ( Read more... )

i went to the gym yesterday. it isn't as nice as the one at home, but that is to be expected i guess. no one was there to check people in, so you just wrote down your membership number...how funny, i could have just walked in and acted like i wrote something down. that was my excitement yesterday ( Read more... )

yet another night where i dreamed about him. i thought this would stop. i guess somewhere in the depths of my mind i cant get rid of those feelings. it is driving me crazy. maybe we want things more when we know we cant have them. or maybe even worse when we know those that we want dont want us. its so freaking ridiculous. i wish the physics ( Read more... )