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I guess it is finally time for decisions to be made in my life. I've taken my time trying to work things out and figure out what my "real desires" are, and what I've come to understand is that those things will come clear eventually and there is no need to waste time wondering about them. Because here I am, twenty years old, a million miles from ( Read more... )

I am well on my way working on my U Chicago application, for the second time (and hopefully final) in my life. A week or so ago I got a letter from an admissions counsellor there telling me that I basically had an excellent chance of being re-admitted, so this time around hopefully all will go well and I'll make the right decision to take out ( Read more... )

Shannon is forever my home girl.

"Suddenly, she laughed. 'My God. Aren't we a wonderful pair of slobs. Sitting here in this dark place, full of self-pity and alcohol, while our lovers are out there in the real world, seeing real people, doing real things, bringing real bacon into real homes-are they real? are they? Sometimes I wake up at night with that question in my mind ( Read more... )

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Wow, I got soooo fucking played by a boy. I have never felt like this before. This is honestly the first time that I have ever fallen so much for so much bullshit. I just consider myself lucky there was no sex. Just goes to show that truly perfect people are really just old men or straight boys on the other side of the line trying to make your ( Read more... )

I would really love if just one more boy would blow me off. Please, whoever would like to, prove to me again that I will never be deserving of any kind of healthy relationship.

Tell me, if a boy asks ME out and gives me HIS number, why should the number then not work and the boy ignore me? What did I do wrong here?

Perhaps I've allowed myself to become more depressed than I should have. I am fully aware that for the most part, one cannot control their emotions, so we say. But the fact of the matter is, I know what I need to be doing right now to make myself satisfied with life, if not even decently happy. But the problem I encounter is that I don't have ( Read more... )